holy crap!
holy crap its been too long since i've written in this last!!! there really isn't that much stuff thats been real exciting in my life! nothing really i mean in march or april or may nothing...besdies i got a boyfriend in may his name was blake it didn't last long it was like a month or maybe even a little less, who knows i am not really thinking about it. In may we got to go to cedar point for band......no i am not a band geek! anyways.....it was kinda fun..when i got to the park me susie tracey libby and lauren and elizabeth...i think >_<... went to go to go get a wheelchair from tracey since she had to wear a boot on her foot.....and julie and jeff told me to call them after i got it....i called them through out the day and couldn't get a hold of them, but w/e i tried to have a good time but it didn't really work b/c i wanted to be with julie, but who knows i might have been ignored or felt left out.....i am not in the best of mood right now....anywhoo...by the end of the night it was like 9:15 and me and tracey were in line for the top thrill dragster!! that ride is the shit!! its soo much fun!! wahoo! we road it and it was like 9:20....by the time we got off we had to basically run to get to our meeting place.....once i got there i figured as much as i was gonna get yelled at by julie...and i did and that made me feel really bad, b/c i wasn't gonna yell or say anything mean to her at all.... but oh well i am just another stupid person! and no one really likes me, and yeah. but w/e.....i was holding back the tears! yeah...i had to share a bed with her.....i kinda had to cry meself to sleep...but no one know that until now. but i acted like it was nothing and sucked it up... but who really cares about me, probly no one but thats ok.
Anywhoo............this is how i've been feeling for a long time now and i am about to tell let it all out if any one care to read or say anything to me...but here it goes....................
Even though everyday to me seems like ppl hate me or ignore me or doesn't really think i am there....it really hurts i guess i just have to put on a smile until i can get home and let it all out......i had to hold it in when i was at track, which i didn't really know anyone there besides tiff but she was hurt most the time and really didn't talk to me.......when i went to gymnatics practice somedays it felt like everyone hated me or was against me...........Skool was the worst..........i really didn't have anyone to talk to about my problems.....i mean i would talk to someone every once in a while.....but then they would go talk to there other friend or if they had a boyfriend they would talk to them, i felt as if no one really cared that i was there...i mean i bet if i wasn't there no one would notice i was gone. but i guess i don't give myself a lot of credit b/c i am lucky to have friends but i dunno sometimes they don't act like they are, but i dunno i migt just be over reacting!
OMG!! today i went to beechmont mall!! and they have a bungee jumping thing where u are hooked on bungies and u jump on a blown up trampoline!! and i did it today! and i did a double backflip! it was soo much fun!! but it cost $5.00's! i guess its cheeper then at kings island!
I LIKE SOMEONE NEW!! and only katie diana knows who it is....b/c she is the only person that i've told so far...but i dunno if i really like him or not.....so when i do figure it out i'll tell u all if anyone care! well i gtg for gymnastics practice and to go eat dinner! i ger FRIDAY'S!! my favorite place in the whole world! yummy
Anywhoo............this is how i've been feeling for a long time now and i am about to tell let it all out if any one care to read or say anything to me...but here it goes....................
Even though everyday to me seems like ppl hate me or ignore me or doesn't really think i am there....it really hurts i guess i just have to put on a smile until i can get home and let it all out......i had to hold it in when i was at track, which i didn't really know anyone there besides tiff but she was hurt most the time and really didn't talk to me.......when i went to gymnatics practice somedays it felt like everyone hated me or was against me...........Skool was the worst..........i really didn't have anyone to talk to about my problems.....i mean i would talk to someone every once in a while.....but then they would go talk to there other friend or if they had a boyfriend they would talk to them, i felt as if no one really cared that i was there...i mean i bet if i wasn't there no one would notice i was gone. but i guess i don't give myself a lot of credit b/c i am lucky to have friends but i dunno sometimes they don't act like they are, but i dunno i migt just be over reacting!
OMG!! today i went to beechmont mall!! and they have a bungee jumping thing where u are hooked on bungies and u jump on a blown up trampoline!! and i did it today! and i did a double backflip! it was soo much fun!! but it cost $5.00's! i guess its cheeper then at kings island!
I LIKE SOMEONE NEW!! and only katie diana knows who it is....b/c she is the only person that i've told so far...but i dunno if i really like him or not.....so when i do figure it out i'll tell u all if anyone care! well i gtg for gymnastics practice and to go eat dinner! i ger FRIDAY'S!! my favorite place in the whole world! yummy