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It's during these endless nights; full of tosses and turns, looking for love and being seduced by lust; that your eyes let me down. I knew it wasn't meant to be, and as you hugged me goodbye with a kiss on my forehead and a wave through the window, I saw our future disappear. My snow globe fantasy had shattered, the plastic shards of glitter frost had cut me deep and our lack luster romance was reality. You weren't going to grab me and tell me how I had changed your world. You weren't going to forget every past relationship and absolve yourself from the heavy baggage you had attained over the years. Your issues were still apparent and my flaws sat ever prevalent in the cold, winter lavender skies. These hazel eyes couldn't hide my disappointment and your seaside blues knew no better. We stood in a stand still as the yellow taxis ran by. A blur in hindsight. Just like every other detail of our relationship, nothing more than an explosion of passionate color only to bleed back to black. The concrete was always there, cracked and worn over time but ever consistent in it's existence. I wanted to love you forever. A sleeping beauty trapped in your fairy tale; I was happy to know my prince charming. You hadn't rescued me yet, but I knew you were coming. I knew that one day the mirror would crack and you would see me for everything I was, everything you needed me to be. Willing to wait, and eager for more I stayed the dumb blonde; and it was while hoping for ecstatic that I settled for entertained.