yes, something but i dont know what, please
my life seems to be in limbo. no mans land. frozen, paused, stuck. i love everything but at the same time hate it all too. as much as i appreciate having another year of hs in the safe suburbs of wb... i really need a radical change. new life. new movie. new characters. a different section of this pear shaped planet. to get to know people and places and figure it all out, all over again. for something- or better, someone- to remain a mystery to me.. add spice to my life. someone to challenge me but at the same time wed understand each other.. if i go on the list will be impossible. it just sucks knowing someone isnt right for you, way in the beginning, when it looks like u barely gave it a real chance. my goal is finding this person before 2012 in case the world really does fuck shit up. for now, being surrounded by couples everywhere i go and always being the odd one out is just an awkwardness ill have to make friends with. i just cant wait for next year.. in imagining the future, i can smell the air.. its crisp and new, i can sense a big change, the kind where you and your life almost reincarnate into something new and compeltely different. the way the air smelled at the beginning of 9th grade.
i hope 2012 happens as predicted..i cant wait to see.. but wont get hopes up.
when i think about the immediate future, i look forward to it. when i think about the future 10, 20, 30 years from now.. i get scared. each year seems to separate humanity farther and farther from what is right and real.. more machines to replace humans.. a tighter system.. war, pollution, overconsumption of natural resources, overpopulation..... we are going deeper and deeper into the destruction age.
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time really does seem to be standing still, though i cant really pick out why. i guess its like the credits at the end of a movie whos plot unraveled and characters made choices and all ended up in different places so im wanting to sneak into a different movie.
oh the words i speak do not work very well, its all randomly and sloppily shplodged together making communication and understanding difficult. SORRY!
*ITCHH*!! :[
ill tell you what though, mosquitos will parish far before 2012.. i will make sure of that.
today noontime,found penny.inmy driveway. face up,1969 ;) lucky? one can only hope while doubt infects opportunity before its even born.. oh well, believing in lucky pennies is like tripping off sugar pills i suppose.
i hope 2012 happens as predicted..i cant wait to see.. but wont get hopes up.
when i think about the immediate future, i look forward to it. when i think about the future 10, 20, 30 years from now.. i get scared. each year seems to separate humanity farther and farther from what is right and real.. more machines to replace humans.. a tighter system.. war, pollution, overconsumption of natural resources, overpopulation..... we are going deeper and deeper into the destruction age.
interested? http://www.beliefnet.com/study_groups/studygroup_message_list.asp?pageID=1&studyGroupID=6218&discussionID=367150&messages_per_page=4
time really does seem to be standing still, though i cant really pick out why. i guess its like the credits at the end of a movie whos plot unraveled and characters made choices and all ended up in different places so im wanting to sneak into a different movie.
oh the words i speak do not work very well, its all randomly and sloppily shplodged together making communication and understanding difficult. SORRY!
*ITCHH*!! :[
ill tell you what though, mosquitos will parish far before 2012.. i will make sure of that.
today noontime,found penny.inmy driveway. face up,1969 ;) lucky? one can only hope while doubt infects opportunity before its even born.. oh well, believing in lucky pennies is like tripping off sugar pills i suppose.