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I’ve learned some things recently. This summer is more about change than I'd like to admit but it's necessary and people need to accept that. Some already have. Good. Time to grow up. If things get fucked up, fix them. Do it right. Don't settle for anything as an easy way out. Settling = big mistake, always. Changing the past is impossible. It'll never happen no matter how much I want it to. Dwelling and/or holding grudges are two of the most pointless things to ever do. Regretting anything is just a huge waste of time and energy. Spend time with people that matter, that actually show some concern for my well being. I'm not a bad person, maybe a little indecisive. Maybe just a few steps ahead of most people in a sense. I think I just know what I want. Or, more importantly, what I don't want. I can't be friends with someone whose lifestyle turns me off. It's best not to assume that I'm not good enough, so I'm going to stop that. I like people who can say things that I'll end up putting lots of thought into, especially if they know that that's what will happen. If someone’s claimed to be my friend for a pretty long time now, then says things that they know could potentially cause some hard feelings via livejournal, and doesn’t even know how my name’s spelled by now, they’re probably not worth getting upset about, right? If I don't know someone well, I hate pretending to. If I do know someone well, I hate pretending not to. The truth hurts, but reality checks are healthy. Summer is flying by but I'm enjoying every minute of it. New people, new places, new interests, new music, new ideas. New is good. I'm so ready to grow up.
It's all relevant.
I think being with Dylan will be the best thing that’s ever happened to me. He is good for me. The whole thing is far overdue. I know it seems ‘fucked up’ to anyone lacking information about the whole thing, but whose business is that anyway? Certainly not most of those who have thought it to be somewhat theirs. I basically don’t care what anyone thinks anymore. You don’t need to like it.
I’ve apologized. I am sorry. People have been hypocritical. Everything will be fine sooner or later, if they’re not fine already. Things just make sense to me nowadays. I know exactly where I want to be and who I want there with me. I know everything’s going to be better than okay.
I stayed home last night for the first time in so long. It felt really good. I got so much needed sleep and just spent time with Amanda for once. The sun needs to stay out and we need to go to the beach more.
I want to say I miss some people from high school, but do I really? Most of those people are probably out doing nothing good. Of course there are exceptions, but for the most part, I’m glad to be away from a lot of those people.
Hey Meghan, remember when we were friends for like three weeks straight?
Cigarettes are cooler than ever now.
Dylan met my mom. He’s the only one that ever has. She is crazy.
I really like Chris Power & Jenny Romano.
Amanda, Shane, Dylan & I ate at Fire + Ice the other night, a bunch of us saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory at the IMAX in Reading’s Jordan’s Furniture the other day, Circa Survive played at the ICC again and a lot of us went to see, some of us went to the Museum of Science not too long ago and learned about constellations and the countdown to supernova in the planetarium which was good because I was a little rusty from my last field trip in elementary school, Whales had a show in Gloucester with these two amazing bands - Cheese on Bread and The Bloodsugars, we saw them again in Portsmouth the next night also, there’s been a lot of nights on the beach that have been realllllly good.
I want to go back to those rocks at Rye, to this secret spot by the boardwalk, to a zoo, to the aquarium, Quebec City, Amanda’s old doorstep after midnight, to see the Newport Mansions, to see Wedding Crashers or go see Cinderella Man again because it’s playing at Stage Two, Providence maybe to see this band I want to see. There’s a lot that I want to do.
I want to see Jon Brion at Largo’s, but that requires going to LA.
Hopefully there’s that show in Ohio?
And that trip to Florida in August?
I want to check out more schools. I’m glad I know exactly what I want to do with my life. I’m glad that I know that with whatever profession I get into, it’ll involve selling my ideas. Life is good and will only get better.
I think it’s about time to stop typing. I wonder who reads all this junk.
It's all relevant.
I think being with Dylan will be the best thing that’s ever happened to me. He is good for me. The whole thing is far overdue. I know it seems ‘fucked up’ to anyone lacking information about the whole thing, but whose business is that anyway? Certainly not most of those who have thought it to be somewhat theirs. I basically don’t care what anyone thinks anymore. You don’t need to like it.
I’ve apologized. I am sorry. People have been hypocritical. Everything will be fine sooner or later, if they’re not fine already. Things just make sense to me nowadays. I know exactly where I want to be and who I want there with me. I know everything’s going to be better than okay.
I stayed home last night for the first time in so long. It felt really good. I got so much needed sleep and just spent time with Amanda for once. The sun needs to stay out and we need to go to the beach more.
I want to say I miss some people from high school, but do I really? Most of those people are probably out doing nothing good. Of course there are exceptions, but for the most part, I’m glad to be away from a lot of those people.
Hey Meghan, remember when we were friends for like three weeks straight?
Cigarettes are cooler than ever now.
Dylan met my mom. He’s the only one that ever has. She is crazy.
I really like Chris Power & Jenny Romano.
Amanda, Shane, Dylan & I ate at Fire + Ice the other night, a bunch of us saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory at the IMAX in Reading’s Jordan’s Furniture the other day, Circa Survive played at the ICC again and a lot of us went to see, some of us went to the Museum of Science not too long ago and learned about constellations and the countdown to supernova in the planetarium which was good because I was a little rusty from my last field trip in elementary school, Whales had a show in Gloucester with these two amazing bands - Cheese on Bread and The Bloodsugars, we saw them again in Portsmouth the next night also, there’s been a lot of nights on the beach that have been realllllly good.
I want to go back to those rocks at Rye, to this secret spot by the boardwalk, to a zoo, to the aquarium, Quebec City, Amanda’s old doorstep after midnight, to see the Newport Mansions, to see Wedding Crashers or go see Cinderella Man again because it’s playing at Stage Two, Providence maybe to see this band I want to see. There’s a lot that I want to do.
I want to see Jon Brion at Largo’s, but that requires going to LA.
Hopefully there’s that show in Ohio?
And that trip to Florida in August?
I want to check out more schools. I’m glad I know exactly what I want to do with my life. I’m glad that I know that with whatever profession I get into, it’ll involve selling my ideas. Life is good and will only get better.
I think it’s about time to stop typing. I wonder who reads all this junk.