Trust?
It has been some time since I have wrote on here. Nothing really to write about, or nothing really positive, nor negative. Not much to say. Something has come up today though, that digs up from my most recent past, and it pisses me off. Pretty much I am reminded never to help any body when it comes to finances. As a lesson kids, never co-sign a loan for friends, girlfriend/boyfriends, or ex's. Because in one way or the other they will let you down, and it will become your responsiblity. I thought I was doing something good to help some one I still thought a lot about. I am afraid I was wrong.
It takes some time for me to trust some one. It makes it hard on a realtionship because I had been hurt and used before. After 4 1/2 years of a realtionship and knowing them 2 years before that, you think you would be able to trust them. I did trust her. I guess I was wrong to of trusted her.
It is funny to think back on a freindship, that turned into a relationship, that turned into a bitter anger against each other. Feburary marks 10 years when we first met, when I did a civil war presenation at her school. I wonder how or why I remeber stuff like this. I guess when you struggle for 4 1/2 years to make something work, you remember it. The good and the bad.
Honestly I don't trust many people now a days. I think that lead to the demise of several relationships that I tried in the past few years. I am afraid to trust. I am afraid to let myself get close to any one. And that hurts. I will admit that I was not the best boyfriend, but she was not the best girlfriend. I guess it is just better to remember the good times that were had. Even though I feel like I have finally been used. I hope to god that I wasn't or have been.
It takes some time for me to trust some one. It makes it hard on a realtionship because I had been hurt and used before. After 4 1/2 years of a realtionship and knowing them 2 years before that, you think you would be able to trust them. I did trust her. I guess I was wrong to of trusted her.
It is funny to think back on a freindship, that turned into a relationship, that turned into a bitter anger against each other. Feburary marks 10 years when we first met, when I did a civil war presenation at her school. I wonder how or why I remeber stuff like this. I guess when you struggle for 4 1/2 years to make something work, you remember it. The good and the bad.
Honestly I don't trust many people now a days. I think that lead to the demise of several relationships that I tried in the past few years. I am afraid to trust. I am afraid to let myself get close to any one. And that hurts. I will admit that I was not the best boyfriend, but she was not the best girlfriend. I guess it is just better to remember the good times that were had. Even though I feel like I have finally been used. I hope to god that I wasn't or have been.