I must first apologise for the delay replying! I went away for a few days and have just got back. I read this before I left and I must thank you SO MUCH for taking the time to write it. It means a lot and there is a lot in here that I want to hang on to.
external motion (though I dislike it) Haha, yay! Me too. :) I mean I say that even though I *have* clearly used it in a few instances and sometimes it really has a purpose. But I am not very drawn to it in general.
I don't think you have to be able to do them in order to validly make the decision not to. This is quite the radical idea for me! And yet so obvious. :D
I do think I was constructing things in an overly negative way initially with these insights. They didn't feel useful so much as crushing, even though I was trying to see their use and find a positive spin for them.
a lot of the thoughts in this post seem to be about the audience, or in life terms, the rest of the world. About others' perceptions of you You're right and I'm glad you called that out because it helped me take a step back and think 'wait a moment... I don't really care how big an audience my vid has so why am I so anxious about it?' I know I do fear rejection as a result of this vid but that's a product of my warped psychology more than anything that is actually likely to happen!
Luckily my trip away was to an academic conference on remix cultures of many sorts, including vidding, and it put heaps of things in perspective for me. It was very interesting to see trends across different disciplines and one of the the themes that came out was pleasure, and particularly the idea of the creator as the ideal viewer ... or creating for yourself and for your pleasure in the process. Which is totally what you suggest here too and which I completely subscribe to philosophically and yet seem to keep falling into holes in my own creative practice in regards to it!
I do think I'm on the edge of freeing myself up to be a bit more experimental in terms of style and technique but I was going about it the wrong way--beating myself with a stick instead of saying to myself 'hey why don't you play with this idea and see what happens, and let yourself "fail" if need be, but that has value too'.
external motion (though I dislike it)
Haha, yay! Me too. :) I mean I say that even though I *have* clearly used it in a few instances and sometimes it really has a purpose. But I am not very drawn to it in general.
I don't think you have to be able to do them in order to validly make the decision not to.
This is quite the radical idea for me! And yet so obvious. :D
I do think I was constructing things in an overly negative way initially with these insights. They didn't feel useful so much as crushing, even though I was trying to see their use and find a positive spin for them.
a lot of the thoughts in this post seem to be about the audience, or in life terms, the rest of the world. About others' perceptions of you
You're right and I'm glad you called that out because it helped me take a step back and think 'wait a moment... I don't really care how big an audience my vid has so why am I so anxious about it?' I know I do fear rejection as a result of this vid but that's a product of my warped psychology more than anything that is actually likely to happen!
Luckily my trip away was to an academic conference on remix cultures of many sorts, including vidding, and it put heaps of things in perspective for me. It was very interesting to see trends across different disciplines and one of the the themes that came out was pleasure, and particularly the idea of the creator as the ideal viewer ... or creating for yourself and for your pleasure in the process. Which is totally what you suggest here too and which I completely subscribe to philosophically and yet seem to keep falling into holes in my own creative practice in regards to it!
I do think I'm on the edge of freeing myself up to be a bit more experimental in terms of style and technique but I was going about it the wrong way--beating myself with a stick instead of saying to myself 'hey why don't you play with this idea and see what happens, and let yourself "fail" if need be, but that has value too'.
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