Alas I have found that I do not grow at all, I just wallow around, if I don't push myself! ;) I am very lazy at heart. :) I really like your advice about tackling the inner problem not the outward expression though! I should say that my dance teacher and my betas are very gentle with me--it's less that they are saying I'm doing it wrong and more that they're letting me know what the impact for the audience is and then I'm deciding I don't want that impact, that I would rather it was softer (because I honestly didn't know).
I think overall I'm probably still going to be mainly drawn to non-subtle subject matter... and for that my natural style is probably going to be ok. But I do have this longing to explore this other kind of side or style as well... I need to find a way to do that without my self-esteem taking such a beating. It is in a pretty poor state at the moment and I can't remember how I used to shore myself up! I know some of this is just the natural cycle of despair and exhaustion I feel at the end of a big project, but some of it is deeper than that. It is a puzzle! (And thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts--it is a comfort!)
I think overall I'm probably still going to be mainly drawn to non-subtle subject matter... and for that my natural style is probably going to be ok. But I do have this longing to explore this other kind of side or style as well... I need to find a way to do that without my self-esteem taking such a beating. It is in a pretty poor state at the moment and I can't remember how I used to shore myself up! I know some of this is just the natural cycle of despair and exhaustion I feel at the end of a big project, but some of it is deeper than that. It is a puzzle! (And thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts--it is a comfort!)
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