Vidding thinks

[bop_radar]

I'm at that stage with my current vid project where I have a nearly full timeline and things are starting to come together structurally. My brain's desperately trying to play catch-up with all the decisions I've made based on intuition, kind of trying to hunt them down and detect whether they are actually sound or don't serve the vid well at all.

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[bop_radar]

Wellll... it's not exactly set on Pegasus (though god, I'd LOVE to make one on Pegasus! So much amazing stuff to get into, gah!!). This is me sorting out the background emotions for approximately 20 seconds of vid footage. It may actually become invisible to anyone but me in the final version. ;) Sowwy! (for now: if I find the right song I would love to make a Pegasus vid one day)

That lockerroom scene GUTS ME, it really does, but at the same time I absolutely love it. I feel like it reflects some of their other exchanges, but kind of dialled up to maximum. And Kara knows it and invites it with the 'here we go' and her 'I'm a delinquent' slouch. The horrible thing is it validates all the bad stuff Kara thinks about Lee and what he's capable of emotionally, the 'you hate me underneath and think I'm a fuck up' feelings. It's familiar to both of them and at the same time they both haaaaaaaaaate it, but they're playing out these roles they're stuck in. It also has this aspect to it for Lee where I think until he actually blurts out those words, his brain is going 'I'm right, I'm right, I'm right, I'm ... OH FUCK I'M AN ASSHOLE' and I think that happens for him a lot with Kara. ;)

I don't envy you the timeline issues with fic--that sounds like a good solution. My impression on rewatch is that Kara is pretty 'out there' about Anders generally, it's not really a secret (even if she didn't mention it to Lee on screen immediately).

Also, OMG how awful is their farewell scene from Lay Down Your Burdens? I'd forgotten! Noodle-slurping aside (*eyeroll*), Lee tries SO HARD there. I'd forgotten how devastating Kara's abrupt 'yeah, me too' (while turning away) in response to 'I hope you find him' was. I'm HEAPS HEAPS better at seeing Kara's feelings for Lee this time around but that scene? No. She totally shuts him down, which I guess shows her loyalty and commitment to Anders (admirable traits), but ... ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch!

I think Lee can sense Kara growing away from him, not just about Anders, but professionally their partnership has been split up too.

Oh yes, shooting aftermath tragic! I really felt for Kara this time round. (First time round I was mainly freaking out about Lee and also still mad as hell with her about Scar). But LOL ADAMA!!! That man has the worst sense of importance ever. I also hate on him eternally for EATING PEANUTS through that all important scene in Unfinished Business. Vidder RAAAAAAAGE. Editing around the peanut is near impossible!