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its weird spending so much time by myself. its 8 pm on sunday night and i havent spoken to another human today. this isnt quite the case everyday, but even on my busy days or weekends i have at least a few hours where im alone. ive had much time to think about myself and to listen to a lot of music. its weird being so anonymous. even with the friends i have made here, and especially the ones ive spent a lot of time with, they dont know me, they dont know portland or my brother or my friends or where i come from or what i am. i think i realized how hard it is to really "get to know someone," and i appreicate a few of my friends much more. ive almost finished the idiot by dostoevsky which i have sadly never read, and have listened to much music that i swiped from drew and robs ipods before i left. brand new appreciation for bands i havent listened to in a while incl choking victim and minor threat, and the realization that elliot smith, fugazi, the thermals, and grandaddy, all bands i never listened to, are all fuckin good. real madrid vs. atletico madrid in 45 minutes.