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yea..i'm kinda really sad... last year i was soooo tight with someone and we had soo much fun together she was like...my best friend. we spent alot of time with eachother during the summer...it was fun for me though because i love spending time with her cuz shes such an awsome person. but this year when we came back to school for our sophmore year..we are drifting apart. its soo sad to me. i know this sounds really corny but almost every night i think about all the good times we have had together and i cry. (lol) this year things have been soo messed up. I have had soooooo many problems with myself this year. just soo many things have been going wrong in my life and NO ONE understands. i keep all my anger bottled up inside of me all the time... because i have no one to tell. i'm hurting people...i just seriously DO NOT want to live anymore.... i have nothing else to live for. every thing is soo fucked up in my life right now. what else DO i have let to live for? ntohing..... i can answer that already. i'm losing people that i care about...all because of me.....everything is always my fault....the way poele react reflects on me...i'm to blame for everything...i'm the bitch...i'm the one who doesn't care....i ignore evryone...i don't care about anyone.... THIS IS HOW PEOPLE FUCKING SEE ME AS!! i hate it and i seriously do not at all want to live..if i were to die today..i wouldn't care.