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yesterday was a pretty long day. work, then happy hour downtown for mi madre. we hadn't been able to celebrate her birthday, which was january 3rd. so, we went to Dussini's. it's in the building where the old spaghetti factory used to be. :(
it's so different. there's a huge wine "elevator" [cellar] through the middle of the whole building that spans from the first floor all the way up to the ceiling on the second floor. it's hard to explain, but it's awesome because that's a whole lot of wine! everyone dresses pretty nice there. unfortunately, i was under dressed. guys were in coats and women were in dresses and freakin designer jeans. i'm gonna need to go shopping soon. i wanted to take steph there for our first week of 'downtown hotties' but i still feel like it's a dorky idea! just ask me out for fuck sake...hahaa...ya right! dating's going to be a nightmare, but since we're only practice dating...i guess it'll be ok! everyone knows how much game i DONT have, it's pathetic, but what are ya gonna do when you just aint got it?! haha, but anyways, the decor they have going on is really impressive. our group stayed FOR EVER. and i had to get going so that i could make it to yvonne's for the L word...grrr...i was late >\
it was ok, they said i didn't miss any of carmen, she wasn't on the whole first episode at all i guess. sad times, as soon as she shows up i'll be goin to bed dreamin of my gf! ay...she's sooo gorgeous!
then, it was off to numbers, thank god i didn't get there till 12, i'm not a big fan, but it was shana's birthday, so i had to go dance with my shanedogg...and ended up taking care of her. poor girl. all her friends got her drinks and shots, and only her roommate was actually watchin out for her when all that crap got her wasted. i didn't mind. she better do the same for me when i turn 24...oh lord...nooooo!
besides the wine at the girl's place, i wasn't drinking last night, even through happy hour. i wasn't feelin it. i was so surprised when i ran into Kara...from freakin mission bay! i see her every once in a while. i dont even think she's ghey, dammit, but her friend's a dancer there, so she went to check her out. she's so cool though. we caught up, and hopefully i'll be chillin with her soon.
i keep thinking about rina. the beginning is so hard. she knows better than i do, and still i dont think it's helping her a bit. i kind of feel lucky now, for never being treated like this girl treats rina, but damn, i dont even know what to say to her. u can tell a person, "just leave". u can tell them that they'll be better if they get out and focus on what'll make life better for them. but love has got to be the hardest thing to walk away from. for us, it's a mind over matter game. steph's right, you will hold on to or let go of whatever you choose to. it's a choice. but sometimes we go around believing that it's more. it's the only way! it's the right way! i know that there's not always going to be 1 right way, 1 right choice, or even 1 right person. i just feel bad because she felt like this girl was the right one, finally, a best friend, someone so much on her level. but if she could look at it from the out side. this girl was never a best friend. she was barely a friend at all. i hope things look up for rina soon.
it's so different. there's a huge wine "elevator" [cellar] through the middle of the whole building that spans from the first floor all the way up to the ceiling on the second floor. it's hard to explain, but it's awesome because that's a whole lot of wine! everyone dresses pretty nice there. unfortunately, i was under dressed. guys were in coats and women were in dresses and freakin designer jeans. i'm gonna need to go shopping soon. i wanted to take steph there for our first week of 'downtown hotties' but i still feel like it's a dorky idea! just ask me out for fuck sake...hahaa...ya right! dating's going to be a nightmare, but since we're only practice dating...i guess it'll be ok! everyone knows how much game i DONT have, it's pathetic, but what are ya gonna do when you just aint got it?! haha, but anyways, the decor they have going on is really impressive. our group stayed FOR EVER. and i had to get going so that i could make it to yvonne's for the L word...grrr...i was late >\
it was ok, they said i didn't miss any of carmen, she wasn't on the whole first episode at all i guess. sad times, as soon as she shows up i'll be goin to bed dreamin of my gf! ay...she's sooo gorgeous!
then, it was off to numbers, thank god i didn't get there till 12, i'm not a big fan, but it was shana's birthday, so i had to go dance with my shanedogg...and ended up taking care of her. poor girl. all her friends got her drinks and shots, and only her roommate was actually watchin out for her when all that crap got her wasted. i didn't mind. she better do the same for me when i turn 24...oh lord...nooooo!
besides the wine at the girl's place, i wasn't drinking last night, even through happy hour. i wasn't feelin it. i was so surprised when i ran into Kara...from freakin mission bay! i see her every once in a while. i dont even think she's ghey, dammit, but her friend's a dancer there, so she went to check her out. she's so cool though. we caught up, and hopefully i'll be chillin with her soon.
i keep thinking about rina. the beginning is so hard. she knows better than i do, and still i dont think it's helping her a bit. i kind of feel lucky now, for never being treated like this girl treats rina, but damn, i dont even know what to say to her. u can tell a person, "just leave". u can tell them that they'll be better if they get out and focus on what'll make life better for them. but love has got to be the hardest thing to walk away from. for us, it's a mind over matter game. steph's right, you will hold on to or let go of whatever you choose to. it's a choice. but sometimes we go around believing that it's more. it's the only way! it's the right way! i know that there's not always going to be 1 right way, 1 right choice, or even 1 right person. i just feel bad because she felt like this girl was the right one, finally, a best friend, someone so much on her level. but if she could look at it from the out side. this girl was never a best friend. she was barely a friend at all. i hope things look up for rina soon.