Best Fuckin' Friend....
I can't sleep tonight... for numerous reasons..but the main one being I'm really concerned about my best friend. I love my best friend to death but they're self destructive in so many ways.
We had some negative words exchanged last night, and I feel like shit about it. Alcohol can be the solution as well as the problem to, too many things.
A lot of people think my frustrations and anger come from jealousy, but they truely only come from fear and worries for my best friend. I'd take a bullet for him. I've never felt so close or so concerned for someone in my life, I just hate to sit back and watch a beautiful soul go through so much useless drama.
Call me crazy but I will stand by him and be there to pick up the pieces when they fall every single time whether it happens 3 times or a million. There is no limits to this friendship. I feel more for and feel closer to him than I have ever any real blood family member of mine. Sometimes I wonder if he even knows exactly how much I care about him and how much I love him. I guess only time will tell, or maybe a long sober conversation.
I need to lay down and try to sleep...but my mind won't allow it. I guess it's just going to be another one of those lonely wide awake nights.
We had some negative words exchanged last night, and I feel like shit about it. Alcohol can be the solution as well as the problem to, too many things.
A lot of people think my frustrations and anger come from jealousy, but they truely only come from fear and worries for my best friend. I'd take a bullet for him. I've never felt so close or so concerned for someone in my life, I just hate to sit back and watch a beautiful soul go through so much useless drama.
Call me crazy but I will stand by him and be there to pick up the pieces when they fall every single time whether it happens 3 times or a million. There is no limits to this friendship. I feel more for and feel closer to him than I have ever any real blood family member of mine. Sometimes I wonder if he even knows exactly how much I care about him and how much I love him. I guess only time will tell, or maybe a long sober conversation.
I need to lay down and try to sleep...but my mind won't allow it. I guess it's just going to be another one of those lonely wide awake nights.