Phone call anxiety syndrome
Yeah so PCAS is annoying to have. I've never in my life! have felt so anxious for a phone call.
"I'll call you from a pay phone in the morning honey I love you!"
Ok lets break down this sentence.
"I'll call you in the morning from a payphone..." Meaning when I wake up. I'll get my ass out of bed to even walk to that payphone to call you.
"...honey I love you!" So if I mess up tomorrow and forget or didn't call you, you'll remember that I said that so I wont be in too much trouble even though I probably wont think I did anything wrong.
I've learned that problems with some people, especially with whom you love, break your heart more than if its someone you don't love. It makes sense for the obvious reasons, but knowing that loving a person their whole person with all their flaws, the flaws part, is very frustrating (When they do these kinds of things, I'm not saying I don't love them)
I get so angry when stuff like this happens because I forget or don't expect it from someone I love.
Excuses have their advantages, their reasons, and their avoidances.
There, how ever, was no excuse to not call someone from a 50 cent pay phone to their house, to get ahold of the woman of their dreams! If this was another situation, I think I could've managed it a little better if the circumstances were different:
If it wasn't for skateboarding (because they all have phones)
If there were no parties involved,
If you were alone, although you can ask for change,
If no one else around you wouldn't let you or didn't have a phone,
and I really can't think of anymore than that. SO.
If you expect me to not be so angry,
If you expect me to just forgive you with out a reason to,
If you expect me to not be hurt by what you've done,
Don't expect ME to be there for you. when your actions are showing me that youre not there for me.
When ONE little phone call could have made all the difference in the world. Not a text message, not a letter in the mail, not a fucking e-mail! Just to here your voice to know that your actions tell me you do think of me and care for my feelings, maybe youd think more about what I really mean to you.
If I don't mean one phone call from a pay phone of only 50cents, Then obviously I'm not even worth 49 Cents of love to you.
So having this in mind, what do you have to say for your self, I don't want any excuses I'm done with those, I just want you to explain to me how hard it is to get 50 cents or even a dollar, to call your woman!
The END?