I'm thinking clear and its time to move on.
I was emotional today. I had a lot on my mind and a lot to think about. I went through a lot of different feelings: excited, happy, crushed, confussed, hurt, happy again, upset and then relieved maybe.
I went to Barnes and Noble tonight for a few hours. I got a coffee and sat in one of the isles on the floor and picked up a couple of books and read a few chapters. One was a self-help book and the other was a relationship book. I read some pretty intresting stuff and I learned a lot about myself......also realized a few things. I'm never going to be the perfect person I want to be because thats just freakin impossible. I also can't be in control of everything. I have to let things happen naturally, and they will rather it be good or bad. Whatever the outcome, its just supossed to happen and I guess I am just supossed to somehow deal with it all. I also need to stop being so negative. Its weighing me down, and I feel like its effecting my relationships with everyone. And thats the worst feeling in the world. I have to make things better before they get sour. Thats the last thing I want.
So now I am taking a deep breath and hoping for the best, because thats just about all I can do. And I think I am okay with this. I will take one day at a time. And I will deffinatly try not to think so much and read to deep into things. That always gets me into trouble.
I do love my family, my friends and my rockin' boyfriend, Andrew. They keep me on my toes and give me support. I thank them for this. It really means a lot.
lahhter,
Meghann
I went to Barnes and Noble tonight for a few hours. I got a coffee and sat in one of the isles on the floor and picked up a couple of books and read a few chapters. One was a self-help book and the other was a relationship book. I read some pretty intresting stuff and I learned a lot about myself......also realized a few things. I'm never going to be the perfect person I want to be because thats just freakin impossible. I also can't be in control of everything. I have to let things happen naturally, and they will rather it be good or bad. Whatever the outcome, its just supossed to happen and I guess I am just supossed to somehow deal with it all. I also need to stop being so negative. Its weighing me down, and I feel like its effecting my relationships with everyone. And thats the worst feeling in the world. I have to make things better before they get sour. Thats the last thing I want.
So now I am taking a deep breath and hoping for the best, because thats just about all I can do. And I think I am okay with this. I will take one day at a time. And I will deffinatly try not to think so much and read to deep into things. That always gets me into trouble.
I do love my family, my friends and my rockin' boyfriend, Andrew. They keep me on my toes and give me support. I thank them for this. It really means a lot.
lahhter,
Meghann