I Bleed Bitterness
Yeah, it's been forever since I've updated, and I promise the next time I write it will be something relatively positive and thoughtful, but right now I'm bleeding bitterness.
I've overstayed my welcome at OU. I've lived through the Golden Ages and now I see an up and coming Dark Ages. I should be saying my fond farewells and thinking about how much I'm going to miss everything, but I'm really not.
I have a few awesome close friends, and a great many other friends who are tons of fun and great to hang around with, but I also have a lot of fluff in my life. I have a lot of relationships which seem to not mean a thing. I don't know. I'm really just frustrated right now.
I'm evaluating all my experiences over the last seven years and I'm coming up short. I'm not happy with myself and I'm not happy with the way I'm leaving things. Perhaps, things will change in the last weeks. I hope so.
As it is though, my heart is full of negative feelings. Sorry for the negative post. Just trying to lance my heart and drain some of the poison out of it.
I've overstayed my welcome at OU. I've lived through the Golden Ages and now I see an up and coming Dark Ages. I should be saying my fond farewells and thinking about how much I'm going to miss everything, but I'm really not.
I have a few awesome close friends, and a great many other friends who are tons of fun and great to hang around with, but I also have a lot of fluff in my life. I have a lot of relationships which seem to not mean a thing. I don't know. I'm really just frustrated right now.
I'm evaluating all my experiences over the last seven years and I'm coming up short. I'm not happy with myself and I'm not happy with the way I'm leaving things. Perhaps, things will change in the last weeks. I hope so.
As it is though, my heart is full of negative feelings. Sorry for the negative post. Just trying to lance my heart and drain some of the poison out of it.