Life continues on
I'm stuck late at work, sort of not wanting to go home.
I think I've figured some things out about my relationship with my wife.
I'm not sure what she thinks of me. But I know that she hates intimacy. An I so want to be intimate! Not sex (not necessarily, but that would be nice...) but just the simple things. Gentle touching. A comforting hug. A shoulder rub. A couple of simple kisses throughout the day. A nice passionate kiss, every once in a while (I haven't had one of those for at least 5 years). And, as I stated earlier, having her come upstairs to sleep in our bed would be nice. She still hasn't done that--well, maybe once or twice in the last three weeks. Two weeks ago, she promised to sleep upstairs (in our bed) "from now on." She's done it---once.
I also realized that she avoids intimacy. She makes excuses. She claims that she can't feel intimate with me until I start getting some major projects done around the house. Then she starts more projects! Before I even have a chance to work on Project "A", she's started Project "G". She doesn't finish them, either. She promises to, but she doesn't.
Well, I'm going to leave now, and head home. Question: do I tell the people that I know about this site? My wife will probably never come here--it's computer-related, and she's a 'phobe.
I just need some sort of acknowledgement of my personhood! Sheesh! Is that too much.
Or, in the words of Harvey Fierstein, "I just want to be loved. Is that so wrong?!?"
I think I've figured some things out about my relationship with my wife.
I'm not sure what she thinks of me. But I know that she hates intimacy. An I so want to be intimate! Not sex (not necessarily, but that would be nice...) but just the simple things. Gentle touching. A comforting hug. A shoulder rub. A couple of simple kisses throughout the day. A nice passionate kiss, every once in a while (I haven't had one of those for at least 5 years). And, as I stated earlier, having her come upstairs to sleep in our bed would be nice. She still hasn't done that--well, maybe once or twice in the last three weeks. Two weeks ago, she promised to sleep upstairs (in our bed) "from now on." She's done it---once.
I also realized that she avoids intimacy. She makes excuses. She claims that she can't feel intimate with me until I start getting some major projects done around the house. Then she starts more projects! Before I even have a chance to work on Project "A", she's started Project "G". She doesn't finish them, either. She promises to, but she doesn't.
Well, I'm going to leave now, and head home. Question: do I tell the people that I know about this site? My wife will probably never come here--it's computer-related, and she's a 'phobe.
I just need some sort of acknowledgement of my personhood! Sheesh! Is that too much.
Or, in the words of Harvey Fierstein, "I just want to be loved. Is that so wrong?!?"