Holy shit!!!!
Holy shit.
The last time i wrote in this was right before i moved to la....
holy crap. and im actually here and im waiting for this scholarship program to be DONEEEE!!! i hate never having a life, i hate getting up EARLY every single morning, i hate wondering if im gonna be late because of the busses not being on the correct schedule, i hate wondering if im gonna make it to the end cause my body feels like its gonna wear out....i hate not being able to do ANYTHING!!!!
on the flipside. im training like crazy and im improving like nuts. i cant believe the lengths and distances ive gone in my dancing. hollllly shit! lol. this scholarship program is gonna get me an agent, where gonna have a HUGE show in july.
ive almost been kicked off scholarship atleast like three times already, cause ive just been that over the program. ive been a hot mess in la. for real for real. just a hot mess. this scholarship program has me, just handicapped. can barely work, can barely make money. can barely do anything.
its APRIL 1ST today. The program ends SEPTEMBER 1ST. Our show is end of JULY. It sounds so close but yet its SO DAMN FAR AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. i have five make up classes to do: int ballet, beg ballet, turns, jazz 2, and hip hop. and they need to be made up by this week. i have work friday 5-10. saturday 3-11. where in the world do i find the tim eto even make shit up when i cant even go in to make it up cause of work, seee......impossible. lol.
boys...are complicated. im so over it. im so over boys trying to be.....just, shady. im tired of trying to put effort into people and getting shit on.
roomies......okay.
living....okay.
job....okay.
maybe i need to start writing in this thing, to vent. i think i shud do that. maybe it'll be a good release. like it use too.
TOMMOROW, I HAVE:
DESK SHIFT 9-1:30
SCHOLARSHIP CLASS: 2:30-4
INT.BALLET 5:30-7
JAZZ 2 7-8:30
HIP HOP 8:30-10:00
see why i hate it? NO LIFEEEE!!!!! lol im at edge performing arts center ALL DAY tommorow. just no life at all lol.
anyways, its time to get something to eat and go to bed. have to be up EXTRA early to catch the bus.
anyways!!! im gonna be updating this thing more often, even though nobody reads it.
i know my life sounds a mess right now, but its actually what ive always wanted. ive worked really hard for this, and i just need to keep going. and get my shit together. im doing this for me and my mom. my mom is gonna be so proud of me once im done. this is all worth it. its just hard. and nothing ever comes easy. WOW!!!!! lol
The last time i wrote in this was right before i moved to la....
holy crap. and im actually here and im waiting for this scholarship program to be DONEEEE!!! i hate never having a life, i hate getting up EARLY every single morning, i hate wondering if im gonna be late because of the busses not being on the correct schedule, i hate wondering if im gonna make it to the end cause my body feels like its gonna wear out....i hate not being able to do ANYTHING!!!!
on the flipside. im training like crazy and im improving like nuts. i cant believe the lengths and distances ive gone in my dancing. hollllly shit! lol. this scholarship program is gonna get me an agent, where gonna have a HUGE show in july.
ive almost been kicked off scholarship atleast like three times already, cause ive just been that over the program. ive been a hot mess in la. for real for real. just a hot mess. this scholarship program has me, just handicapped. can barely work, can barely make money. can barely do anything.
its APRIL 1ST today. The program ends SEPTEMBER 1ST. Our show is end of JULY. It sounds so close but yet its SO DAMN FAR AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. i have five make up classes to do: int ballet, beg ballet, turns, jazz 2, and hip hop. and they need to be made up by this week. i have work friday 5-10. saturday 3-11. where in the world do i find the tim eto even make shit up when i cant even go in to make it up cause of work, seee......impossible. lol.
boys...are complicated. im so over it. im so over boys trying to be.....just, shady. im tired of trying to put effort into people and getting shit on.
roomies......okay.
living....okay.
job....okay.
maybe i need to start writing in this thing, to vent. i think i shud do that. maybe it'll be a good release. like it use too.
TOMMOROW, I HAVE:
DESK SHIFT 9-1:30
SCHOLARSHIP CLASS: 2:30-4
INT.BALLET 5:30-7
JAZZ 2 7-8:30
HIP HOP 8:30-10:00
see why i hate it? NO LIFEEEE!!!!! lol im at edge performing arts center ALL DAY tommorow. just no life at all lol.
anyways, its time to get something to eat and go to bed. have to be up EXTRA early to catch the bus.
anyways!!! im gonna be updating this thing more often, even though nobody reads it.
i know my life sounds a mess right now, but its actually what ive always wanted. ive worked really hard for this, and i just need to keep going. and get my shit together. im doing this for me and my mom. my mom is gonna be so proud of me once im done. this is all worth it. its just hard. and nothing ever comes easy. WOW!!!!! lol