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Alright, I feel like a pud. I'm laying down and I'm not sleeping... HELLO!!! The pillow's whispering sweet nothings in my ear, the couch is rocking back and forth, and my eyes are looking at my nose... But I'm still awake. Ain't that some shit... Cross Eyed as a mofo but yet I'm still awake.
I was giving some more thought to my situation with dumbass and I figured if anyone met him, it'd be another thing to have to explain. That and I know no one would like him. I broke it off but yet he makes it seem like we're still together. I got him out of the habit of calling everynight. There's no way I was going to stay up till 2 just to hear from him or get up at 8. Plus, it wouldn't have lasted. I think the only reason it lasted was because no one was involved.
I finally figured that one out... If everyone else's bullshit stayed out of certain things, it'd be fine. That's how all my relationships are... Had people stayed out of them, thing would have been ok, you know. It's other people's shit I have to worry about now.
Now there are stupid people and then there are some mother fuckin' dumb fucks out there. Dealing with the really dumb ones is starting to make my IQ drop. Sorry people but when you're being told not to talk then don't talk. It's not a fucking request if we ain't being nice about it. Talking with no one listening is a waste of air. That's my air bitch so take it somewhere else.
So I figured that I needed to make a venture to the resevoir. Yes I'm weird. Yes, I enjoy that creepy bitch at night. But it's night creepy. It's a different kind of place for me. I'm sorry if you guys don't understand that. And if it makes sense to you then good for you. But don't knock my place. I mentioned it to someone and then gave me a weird look like why the fuck you want to be going there... Well, more then likely to get away from people who don't know me well enough to know what it does for me.
Oh and another thing I'm beginning to be annoyed by... People assuming this and that and this and that about me. You don't know me if you're assuming shit I've told you time and time again is right. YOu don't fucking pay attention to me so don't even fucking bother. It's a waste of time to try and get certain people to understand me. What kills me is I know certain people for years and years and years and yet they still don't get when to back the fuck off. They have a tendency of pushing me way too far. And then the dumb bastards wonder why I get so pissed and then they get pissed at me. Hello, if you throw a rock at someone over and over... Someone's going to get hurt.
Ok if I get that fucking look one more time I'm going to punch you. I say something and instantly, I get that god damn look like I said something stupid. Ok, if you don't understand it, so be it. Don't try and make me feel like an idiot along with you. Why do you think I don't like talking to you. Hello, I'm not going to talk to someone who belittles me about everything that I do wrong. Try looking at what I've accomplished in my life. Then look at what you've been doing... Exactly. And if you don't know who I'm talking about then you're fucking stupid and if you know who I'm talking about then you know how you fucking act and you don't need to talk to me. You do it, you know you do it, so back the fuck off. Certain things I don't want to do right now and if I ever did quit my job and didn't have a back up. So fucking what. It isn't your bills you have to pay. If I didn't want to go to college, I didn't have to fucking go. Just because you decided to doesn't make you the better person.
Arggg
I was giving some more thought to my situation with dumbass and I figured if anyone met him, it'd be another thing to have to explain. That and I know no one would like him. I broke it off but yet he makes it seem like we're still together. I got him out of the habit of calling everynight. There's no way I was going to stay up till 2 just to hear from him or get up at 8. Plus, it wouldn't have lasted. I think the only reason it lasted was because no one was involved.
I finally figured that one out... If everyone else's bullshit stayed out of certain things, it'd be fine. That's how all my relationships are... Had people stayed out of them, thing would have been ok, you know. It's other people's shit I have to worry about now.
Now there are stupid people and then there are some mother fuckin' dumb fucks out there. Dealing with the really dumb ones is starting to make my IQ drop. Sorry people but when you're being told not to talk then don't talk. It's not a fucking request if we ain't being nice about it. Talking with no one listening is a waste of air. That's my air bitch so take it somewhere else.
So I figured that I needed to make a venture to the resevoir. Yes I'm weird. Yes, I enjoy that creepy bitch at night. But it's night creepy. It's a different kind of place for me. I'm sorry if you guys don't understand that. And if it makes sense to you then good for you. But don't knock my place. I mentioned it to someone and then gave me a weird look like why the fuck you want to be going there... Well, more then likely to get away from people who don't know me well enough to know what it does for me.
Oh and another thing I'm beginning to be annoyed by... People assuming this and that and this and that about me. You don't know me if you're assuming shit I've told you time and time again is right. YOu don't fucking pay attention to me so don't even fucking bother. It's a waste of time to try and get certain people to understand me. What kills me is I know certain people for years and years and years and yet they still don't get when to back the fuck off. They have a tendency of pushing me way too far. And then the dumb bastards wonder why I get so pissed and then they get pissed at me. Hello, if you throw a rock at someone over and over... Someone's going to get hurt.
Ok if I get that fucking look one more time I'm going to punch you. I say something and instantly, I get that god damn look like I said something stupid. Ok, if you don't understand it, so be it. Don't try and make me feel like an idiot along with you. Why do you think I don't like talking to you. Hello, I'm not going to talk to someone who belittles me about everything that I do wrong. Try looking at what I've accomplished in my life. Then look at what you've been doing... Exactly. And if you don't know who I'm talking about then you're fucking stupid and if you know who I'm talking about then you know how you fucking act and you don't need to talk to me. You do it, you know you do it, so back the fuck off. Certain things I don't want to do right now and if I ever did quit my job and didn't have a back up. So fucking what. It isn't your bills you have to pay. If I didn't want to go to college, I didn't have to fucking go. Just because you decided to doesn't make you the better person.
Arggg