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I've been feeling kind of sad lately; wondering if I should actually ask her to prom. But there are several things that seem to be keeping me from doing so. First off, while it may not appear like it I have an extremely low self-esteem. I hate looking in mirrors or at pictures of myself do to the fact that they just show how ugly I am. Second, I can't imagine her going-out or dancing with anyone. I just can't see it happening. Am I just strange for thinking this or do other people see this to? Third, I'm having difficulty building up the courage to ask. While that is dependent on all the other aspects it is the one that's going to ultimately decide if I ask or not. And Finally, I have the worst fear of rejection. I think my biggest fear in life is being alone with no one that cares about me. I always wonder if anyone every thinks about me when I'm not around... or am I just one of those guys that people can easily push out of their minds and replaced with someone else. I realize I shouldn't be letting everyone read this but I just can't keep it inside myself (unlike someone who can :P). It would tear me apart if I didn't let others know how I felt. Well, if anyone wants to respond to this or give me any advice, go ahead...
-Sean
-Sean