Fanmix: Bluest Water

[boomwizard]

Medium: Television
Fandom: Glee (AU)
Subject: Siren!Rachel
Format: All mp3. Eight tracks.
A/N: Directly inspired by this Rachel/Quinn fic series by inkweaver_amara . And when I say directly inspired I mean "OH LOOK, I MADE MORE FANGIRLY STUFF FOR ANOTHER FANFIC. AGAIN." This is a mix of songs that remind me of water, or just generally put me in that dreamy mood

Comments

[boomwizard]

Enya is amazing. 'NOW WE ARE FREE' IS ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING SONGS EVER.

When good writers come up and say "OMG YOUR PHOTOSHOP!" it is obligatory of me to respond with "OMG YOUR WRITING!" because I am envious of every person who can just let the words flow. The words hate me, and they bite my fingers when I try to type them.

So, oblig "OMG YOUR WRITING!" and deaf!Rachel made me cry.

[boomwizard]

That's a good thing. I don't just read any angst. I'm anti-angst, I loathe angst. It takes a great angsty fic to lure me in, let alone keep me reading - AND THEN to make me cry on top of THAT.

ETA: Also, that gif. It shouldn't be possible for something to make me so sad and amused at the same time. I'm like giggling with tears in my eyes. HER FACE. SO SAD, BUT FUNNY.

[boomwizard]

I cannot accurately describe just how much I hate angst. Like, I'd rather read badfic than angst. I'm the crackhumourfluff girl, I like to laugh and I like to feel fuzzy inside.

What I do not like is to bawl my eyes out and go hide under my covers for a week straight because a certain fic hurt so gloriously bad. And then another. NEVER AGAIN.

And I totally just remembered, that's where I saw the same icon from that gif - on your companion piece. I was just scrolling through the comments to make one of my own and I don't think I ended up leaving one because I nearly peed myself from laughing so hard at that icon. I literally could not stop giggling.

Despite being angsty and making me sad, I enjoyed reading your fic because it was written well and the subject matter really interested me - partly because of how it would have such a monumental effect on that character, but also because I have a problem with my own hearing and it struck a chord with me. It's not life altering by any means, but it certainly ticks me off when people disregard it as selective hearing and that it's normal for people my age.

BOO, MEDICALLY DIAGNOSED SINCE AGE TEN, SO SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS.

It's becoming more and more apparent that I'm practically incapable of leaving small replies. I'll stop now.

[boomwizard]

I ALWAYS DO THIS. I talk to people, and I think "OH I KNOW YOU, YOU'RE NICE...what? Don't be silly, we're frie-WHY ARE YOU NOT ON MY FRIENDS LIST?! I THOUGHT YOU WERE, HONEST." I do it all the time. I friend you, yes.

And no, goodness no, your fic didn't make me hide under the covers. It got me a little teary but I didn't bawl and spend a week in bed wondering what I ever did to deserve that. The first fic I mentioned didn't have any warnings, and it was an epic AU, in both length and style, and you think there's going to be a happy ending, OH THE HELICOPTER, OH THEY'RE ALMOST THERE, THEY'RE GOING TO MAKE IT OUT AND BE IN LOVE AND HAPPY FOREV- and then there's an explosion and one of them DIES and the other one is left alone and wounded and almost deaf and I just lost a little part of my soul to that fic. (And again when for some insane reason I went back and read it again.)

The second one was just written by my online BFF/favourite writer ever, and she even warned that it was angst and I thought "Okay, it's Jenny, she hates angst as much as I do. It can't be too b- SUICIDE?! OH, AND NOW THE HEARTFELT DYING CONFESSION. I HATE YOU." soooo...

I had chronic ear infections since birth, and never had normal hearing until I was ten years old. The doctors said it's a wonder I never needed speech therapy, because it sounded like my head was underwater all the time. I hold it at least partially accountable for my chronic shyness, because I couldn't understand what the hell people were saying to me I just shut off from them all. The whole deal with my inner-ear gave me worse than horrible balance on top of that.

I have normal pitch and everything, my hearing itself is fine (which is why I said, it's not life altering. It's a pain in the ass but it's nothing compared to others like yourself) there's something wrong with my brain or whatever, they said it's kind of like potholes. Or dyslexia of the hearing. The message goes IN fine, just on the way to my brain it gets put through a tumble dry and what I hear comes out as something completely different, and then you have constant awkward mishearings and think your friends are talking about porn when THEY REALLY WEREN'T. AT ALL. Not even close to the same word.

The term is Audio Processing Deficiency. I had to deal with some bitch of a lady last week, some course coordinator, and I'm supposed to explain it under the medical/disabilities section, and she just likened it to selective hearing and said it's not that bad, most people my age have it. It's lucky I'm such a meek person I would have gone all bitch on her ass right there, I'm not mishearing on purpose you daft twat.

LOL TWAT. (See, long comment. What did I tell you?)

[boomwizard]

You- YOU KILLED BRITTANY? You're lucky I don't defriend you right now.




If it mentions angst in the warnings, even if it has fluff and humour (AND a happy ending) attached, most of the time I can't stomach it even then. I suppose it depends how long the angst goes on for, and how well the fic is written, etc.

No, not at all. I find stuff like that fascinating myself. I have no idea why or how it works, I just know THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH MAH HEAD. Somewhere. I suppose when it's more obvious there's something wrong (like hearing aids or glasses/canes for certain people with visual problems) most people would be less likely to be a jackass about it. With mine, people have no idea I have anything wrong with me unless I tell them. They probably just think I'm weird and unnattentive, or I'm being annoying on purpose. Like it's my fault any noise is TOO LOUD and I can't understand a word you're saying.

[boomwizard]

No AIM. I have MSN though.

Oh, I love when that happens. To other people of course, not me, because that's awkward. But whenever some ass gets their comeuppance it's nice to watch.

[boomwizard]

THIS IS THE INTERNET.




I am marginally less shy online than in person. But I still avoid confrontation at all costs. And I always want to talk. I try to get more people on there, the more I have the more likely it is that someone will be online that I can chat with because I have nothing but time and like bouncing ideas off people I'm more familiar with.

[boomwizard]

Well I said marginally. I'm still tentative talking to people I haven't spoken to before. It's one of the main reasons I rarely leave comments unless I reaaaally like the story.

ADDED YOUR EMAIL. Now I have a grand total of 15 people. Amazing.
NOW BEGINS THE GAME OF CHICKEN. I could count on one hand the number of times I start conversations, I'm always paranoid I'm going to interrupt something or they're not going to want to talk to me. Yeah it's a little paranoid but I still do it.