yeah...
So i dont really write in this thing anymore...there just isn't really anything interesting to put in here anymore when i actually find time to do it..umm
I get my lisence in 9 days thats exciting..
kinda givin up on the whole guy thing..it just isn't worth it anymore..it doesn't really even make me sad because i am content with just hanging out with just my friends..im not really looking for a relationship..just to have a fun once in a while..just hang out and act crazy! of course being sober the whole time! GOD WHAT WERE YOU THINKIN!!
Even though i am good with my friends..it isn't like any of them want to hang out with me..or even call me for that matter..i dunno..everyone just has their own little love circle and im just not in it..like yes there are like 3 people who actually try to hang out with me...
Nina
Steph
Bethany
sometimes Adrienne
But no one else..no one calls me to just talk about things..im just not wanted i guess..I try to be in on things but when i interupt a conversation people make me feel like shit and are like, "I dont think i was talkin to you" or the famous, "I wasn't talkin to you, i was talkin to the other steph" God i love that one..like i am supposed to know..
I guess i just feel unloved...no one wants to tell me exciting news..why they are having a bad day..who they like..just doesn't happen..
Lost most of my close friends cause they find other ones that are obviously better then me..
Oh well..i guess just being myself isn't good enough anymore
I get my lisence in 9 days thats exciting..
kinda givin up on the whole guy thing..it just isn't worth it anymore..it doesn't really even make me sad because i am content with just hanging out with just my friends..im not really looking for a relationship..just to have a fun once in a while..just hang out and act crazy! of course being sober the whole time! GOD WHAT WERE YOU THINKIN!!
Even though i am good with my friends..it isn't like any of them want to hang out with me..or even call me for that matter..i dunno..everyone just has their own little love circle and im just not in it..like yes there are like 3 people who actually try to hang out with me...
Nina
Steph
Bethany
sometimes Adrienne
But no one else..no one calls me to just talk about things..im just not wanted i guess..I try to be in on things but when i interupt a conversation people make me feel like shit and are like, "I dont think i was talkin to you" or the famous, "I wasn't talkin to you, i was talkin to the other steph" God i love that one..like i am supposed to know..
I guess i just feel unloved...no one wants to tell me exciting news..why they are having a bad day..who they like..just doesn't happen..
Lost most of my close friends cause they find other ones that are obviously better then me..
Oh well..i guess just being myself isn't good enough anymore