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[boombox_tragedy]

I feel so strange. I need to find my niche, somewhere to put all my frustration, a place that I know is mine, a place where fear will not ruin every single thing that I love. I don't know why I push away everything I enjoy, seriously. I do it all the time. I'm doing it with John, I did it with Skating, and now Im doing it with the play. But I'm not

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[getaway___car]

I think the you and John thing is awesome. Im so glad u gave him a chance, I think u and him look really cute together. And I know u get worried about him and Katie but don't worry about that, trust me, they would never work out together, he needs someone like you. you would be good for him and he would be good for you. And this entry reminds me of Remy in This Lullaby, like how she was scared of getting hurt. But sometimes I think maybe it's worth it to take risks and let yourself fall for someone. I know I said the whole nate thing feels like wasted time, but thinking back now, if I knew back in the beginning that nothing would happen with me and him, I still would have wanted to talk to him on the phone and hang out with him and like him, because you can't always worry about the future and what will happen, maybe I feel crappy now, but there were so many nights when I would go to bed at 4:00 AM after talking to him and be so happy, and I'm glad I let myself have those happy nights, so maybe it's like that with u and John, and u gotta let yourself be happy, u deserve to be happy more than anyone, so go get that happiness! and have fun talking to him late at night and go to bed happy, happy moments are very cool. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

[boombox_tragedy]

you make a lot of sense, and I love you! this Nate thing has really been good for you, despite those crazy freakouts while driving by his house, but he has given you a lot of perspective, and its really helped you mature and find yourself. "You can make the best out of a bad situation, they make diamonds out of coal." What u said about how you wouldnt trade all those late nights, reminds me of that quote. Im glad you had all those happy notes, Jo. You deserve millions of happy nights.I LOVE YOU!
you're amazing:) and you have a beautiful soul.