sing like you think no ones listening...
sing me something soft, sad and delicate or loud and out of key sing me anything...
i've been listning to thins straylight run song non stop... it's so pretty... yep well i saw my little sister the other day... she hasn't been to good, she got put on home school and she's seeing a therepist.... i feel bad for her, she's only 12... she dosn't need all this stress she's putting on herself. on top of my grandpa getting cancer my mom's turned into a raging alcoholic... she wrecked her car due to drunk driving and while it was in the shop she totaled her rental car the same way... only this time she got a DUI... sucks for her. i don't know it makes me realize that everytime i drink i'm one step closer to turning into my mother... and sure i love her but at the same time i have this hatred for her and all the stupid things she does... i saw my mom duing drugs and i swore to my self i would never be like her... and i never was... but why can't i swear off alcohol the way i did with drugs. i have quit getting drunk... but whenever it's there i am never like no i don't want anything to do with that... i always give in and say sure i'll have one...i want my sad panda back... it was so easy with him always there... i didn't want to drink cause for one i knew he would be upset but two i knew we'd go out and have fun.... even if having fun ment just staying up all night and talking... i never wanted to drink cause i.... i don't know why... or maybe i do and i'm just to afraid to admit it. blah blah blah... does anyone want to beat me up... i'll let you... whoever wants to punch me in the face, just let me know and we'll make arangements...
i've been listning to thins straylight run song non stop... it's so pretty... yep well i saw my little sister the other day... she hasn't been to good, she got put on home school and she's seeing a therepist.... i feel bad for her, she's only 12... she dosn't need all this stress she's putting on herself. on top of my grandpa getting cancer my mom's turned into a raging alcoholic... she wrecked her car due to drunk driving and while it was in the shop she totaled her rental car the same way... only this time she got a DUI... sucks for her. i don't know it makes me realize that everytime i drink i'm one step closer to turning into my mother... and sure i love her but at the same time i have this hatred for her and all the stupid things she does... i saw my mom duing drugs and i swore to my self i would never be like her... and i never was... but why can't i swear off alcohol the way i did with drugs. i have quit getting drunk... but whenever it's there i am never like no i don't want anything to do with that... i always give in and say sure i'll have one...i want my sad panda back... it was so easy with him always there... i didn't want to drink cause for one i knew he would be upset but two i knew we'd go out and have fun.... even if having fun ment just staying up all night and talking... i never wanted to drink cause i.... i don't know why... or maybe i do and i'm just to afraid to admit it. blah blah blah... does anyone want to beat me up... i'll let you... whoever wants to punch me in the face, just let me know and we'll make arangements...