well shit...
why is it when things suck they really suck??? the day after christmas my grandpa told everyone he has cancer... what the fuck... i don't know what to do. when i first found out i was like it's okay everything will be cool... then i talked to him and it was so hard... i had to fight so hard not to cry... i'm the strong one in my family... i never cry i'm the one everyone always comes to when they're crying... i don't know... i'm so confused and hurt. he said he's going to have surgury to try and get it all out... but that's never 100% you know.i guess the good thing is that he has 6 months before it gets bad, so i guess all i can do is hope that the surgury works... blah i don't know wether to cry, be angry or if i should just get drunk and forget about it... yeah the drunk thing isn't a very good idea but i thought i'd through it out there anyway... blah that's all i can really say...