May 05, 2010 16:42
The suspense lies in the waiting. And the challenge is to move on from there. But I feel like I'm in a limbo. I'm floating through a routine of pc and eating. Unhealthy and not to mention extremely hazardous to the efficiency of my brain. I need to have a purpose of being here. And right now, 'just because' and 'nothing' is not good enough. Maybe that's why I want to be a doctor. The purpose is clear enough and so is the need. The question is whether I have the iron will to pull through.
I'm optimistic that I do have it. But the realist says "you will never know until you're truly in the fire."
I guess it's to get 3rd degree burns and live to tell about it. It's to get hurt and not let it pull you down for so long. It's about all of the proverbial roadblocks that you have to get through before being successful. I know this but as I said, the challenge is to move on from there. 'There' is what I'm afraid of.