*pounds head pointlessly against wall*

[booky_dedreamer]

Bleh. Screw having a good vacation - this spring break is absolutely KILLING my normal schedule. I didn't get up until after 3 PM today, and that's not much later than I was up the rest of the week. My eating schedule is blown to bits, too . . .usually I manage two meals a day. Usually. Today my second mean came out 1 in the morning, but, bleh. . . . I feel horrible about abandoning people/places/things involving the internet. . . I almost cried the other day when I looked at my complete list of IM friends and I'm no longer 'friends' of about 3/4 of them . . . Am I just moving off the 'net? Is that it? Or am I simply becoming just as unsocial online as off? *pounds head more, and winces slightly* This has not been the best week for me . . . free time = boredom, boredom = pointless exercises to waste time, pointless exercises = guilt, guilt = general tension, general tension = depression . . . .O.O And it doesn't help at all that since my eating schedule is off, my pill schedule is off, and my depression is thus worse than usual in general. Then, my brain feels prepetually turned off . . . . @.@
Ok, I know. I'm ranting. I'm being a typical 17-year-old. The horror!
In other news, is it a bad sign when I'm beginning to talk like people I IM with online, OFFLINE? I've been unconciouslessly stealing some types of wording and idea presentation from this guy I talk to online . . . . it's a little scary at times.

*yawns* Screw vacations. If it's mundane I'm secretly missing, it returns on monday. *grumbles a bit* If I'm this bad on spring break, I wonder how this summer'll turn out. . .@.@