It's over.
I'm...numb. It was not the way I expected nor hoped things would go. It makes me sad for everyone involved! He should be ok. He will be ok! It's not like we didn't see this coming - the writing on the wall, they say, I guess
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Please don't interpret the length of time it took me to get back to you as a sign that I didn't appreciate your note. On the contrary.
Every word you said sounded to me clearly and strongly as coming from a friend of *mine* - I'm grateful to you for that! In fact it sounded very close to what I've told myself countless times. Except for the part about how you feel in your relationship. That's the part that made me simultaneously happy for you, and sad for me AND for him, because it's what everybody wants and what I felt he and I *could* have if only he would recognize it! But of course that's an illusion because if he doesn't see it that way then it's clearly impossible.
I have a lot more inside me wanting to get out, to spread it all in front of me and take a good long look at it and sort it out would probably be helpful not just in the emotionally therapeutic sense but also to actually LEARN something from it all possibly... - but I feel strange posting here. Thanks again for the time and thoughfulness spent on your note - I can't tell you how much it means, ESPECIALLY because you're a friend of Glenn's whom I care about so very much.
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