IF WE GET A BOOKMAN I CAN USE THIS ICON 8D
Written here are my serious thoughts on Kuzu's character and how being a Bookman would affect 'Allen'. This isn't so much an essay as me scribbling down thoughts randomly.
Firstly, we have the canon Allen. He is a happy, smiley child with so much angst, but he gets on with his life. He is a little Jesus who loves everyone and wants to save the world and the akuma and protect everything ever. He hates killing. He has a specially designed sword that CAN'T kill a person, he is kind and sweet and expressive and makes you want to hug him. SO LET'S PUT THIS CHARACTER IN A BOOKMAN'S ROLE. He doesn't have a heart. He's not allowed a heart at all. He has to suppress all his emotions and simply be a neutral observer. He can no longer be the happy Jesus kid with the hero complex, he is a Bookman.
The way I play Kuzu, he is exactly the same as Allen. He has these complicated emotions and he wants to save everyone, he loves humans even though he's seen what idiots they can be and how they start wars and how hopeless they are, he still wants to believe people are basically good. He knows they're idiots that will never learn and there will always be hardship and strife, but deep down he has faith in humanity. He still wants to protect and save everyone, but he will never admit this to anyone, not even himself. Kuzu lies to himself all the time, he betrays his feelings and always listens to his head over his heart. In a way he's sort of jealous of the 'Allen's' who can be so free with their emotions when he can't, when they talk of loving and saving everyone it upsets him that he can't be that way. But he loves being a Bookman and it's everything he ever wanted, even if the cost of it is his heart he's willing to give that up. Kuzu loves history and he loves recording and he really loves Bookman, he misses his grumpy old panda grandpa so much. Kuzu's real feelings are starting to slip just a little in the DR, for there is no Bookman here. Normally back home, if he ever starts caring too much there's Bookman to slap him until he buries his heart, but here there's nobody to do that. It's up to him to control his feelings and steel himself against this 'love' and 'empathy', and it's hard. It's very, very hard but he has to deal. He's trying not to let himself lose control, but sometimes that happens and he has to backtrack and calm himself down.
This is why I'm curious to give Kuzu Crown Clown, to see how he would react to it. He would have to acknowledge the pity he feels for the akuma, the love he feels for humanity and his desire to save everyone, which is something he just can't bring himself to do. He's not a saviour, or a great destroyer of time, he's just Bookman's apprentice. All he wants to be is Bookman Junior, but his arm means he is God's apostle. Bookman is wrong when he tells him that Kuzu isn't involved, he's the one destined to defeat the Earl and all that. Kuzu will not take this discovery well, he will fight against it and deny it all the way, absolutely refusing to accept his fate and Crown Clown won't be able to accept his resolve. In order to get his arm back and fight, he will have to go against everything that makes him 'Kuzu' and become 'Allen'. He will have to admit to himself that he has these feelings, and that will make it very hard to study as Bookman's apprentice. Kuzu doesn't have the cursed eye, making it very hard for him to love the akuma the same way Allen does, but he still cares for them. He knows about the soul suffering and he pities them, he wants to help them, but he will never admit this. The truth would have to be dragged out of him for him and Crown Clown to accept each other, it would take a long time and there would be lots of character development, and afterwards Kuzu would become more openly emotional.
Allen as a character does not make a good Bookman's apprentice, he's too caring. Kuzu struggles with this, he struggles with keeping his feelings in line. They are starting to come forth in the DR, and he's having issues controlling himself. He will keep trying however, because he wants to go home and become Bookman and record history forever~ That is his ideal lifestyle, but sadly destiny has other plans for him. Doesn't it always?
Firstly, we have the canon Allen. He is a happy, smiley child with so much angst, but he gets on with his life. He is a little Jesus who loves everyone and wants to save the world and the akuma and protect everything ever. He hates killing. He has a specially designed sword that CAN'T kill a person, he is kind and sweet and expressive and makes you want to hug him. SO LET'S PUT THIS CHARACTER IN A BOOKMAN'S ROLE. He doesn't have a heart. He's not allowed a heart at all. He has to suppress all his emotions and simply be a neutral observer. He can no longer be the happy Jesus kid with the hero complex, he is a Bookman.
The way I play Kuzu, he is exactly the same as Allen. He has these complicated emotions and he wants to save everyone, he loves humans even though he's seen what idiots they can be and how they start wars and how hopeless they are, he still wants to believe people are basically good. He knows they're idiots that will never learn and there will always be hardship and strife, but deep down he has faith in humanity. He still wants to protect and save everyone, but he will never admit this to anyone, not even himself. Kuzu lies to himself all the time, he betrays his feelings and always listens to his head over his heart. In a way he's sort of jealous of the 'Allen's' who can be so free with their emotions when he can't, when they talk of loving and saving everyone it upsets him that he can't be that way. But he loves being a Bookman and it's everything he ever wanted, even if the cost of it is his heart he's willing to give that up. Kuzu loves history and he loves recording and he really loves Bookman, he misses his grumpy old panda grandpa so much. Kuzu's real feelings are starting to slip just a little in the DR, for there is no Bookman here. Normally back home, if he ever starts caring too much there's Bookman to slap him until he buries his heart, but here there's nobody to do that. It's up to him to control his feelings and steel himself against this 'love' and 'empathy', and it's hard. It's very, very hard but he has to deal. He's trying not to let himself lose control, but sometimes that happens and he has to backtrack and calm himself down.
This is why I'm curious to give Kuzu Crown Clown, to see how he would react to it. He would have to acknowledge the pity he feels for the akuma, the love he feels for humanity and his desire to save everyone, which is something he just can't bring himself to do. He's not a saviour, or a great destroyer of time, he's just Bookman's apprentice. All he wants to be is Bookman Junior, but his arm means he is God's apostle. Bookman is wrong when he tells him that Kuzu isn't involved, he's the one destined to defeat the Earl and all that. Kuzu will not take this discovery well, he will fight against it and deny it all the way, absolutely refusing to accept his fate and Crown Clown won't be able to accept his resolve. In order to get his arm back and fight, he will have to go against everything that makes him 'Kuzu' and become 'Allen'. He will have to admit to himself that he has these feelings, and that will make it very hard to study as Bookman's apprentice. Kuzu doesn't have the cursed eye, making it very hard for him to love the akuma the same way Allen does, but he still cares for them. He knows about the soul suffering and he pities them, he wants to help them, but he will never admit this. The truth would have to be dragged out of him for him and Crown Clown to accept each other, it would take a long time and there would be lots of character development, and afterwards Kuzu would become more openly emotional.
Allen as a character does not make a good Bookman's apprentice, he's too caring. Kuzu struggles with this, he struggles with keeping his feelings in line. They are starting to come forth in the DR, and he's having issues controlling himself. He will keep trying however, because he wants to go home and become Bookman and record history forever~ That is his ideal lifestyle, but sadly destiny has other plans for him. Doesn't it always?