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at work, i began the secret santa program. a few weeks ago, i thought it would be fun for everyone (that wanted to participate) to throw their name into a bag, pull out another one, and purchase for that person a small gift. it makes the season more..festive, iguess. last year, i did the same thing at borders and it worked out really really well, most everyone participated and everything went according to plan. maybe it went a little differently because i am in the city n ow, as opposed to a suburb, or maybe not everyone has a ll the much money but maybe twelve (out of about fifty) people wanted to participate. not that this is bothering me, i was happy that anyone else wanted to do it at all. but, of the twelve, somehow, one name wasnt picked. this means that someone probably put their name in but never picked a name. it doesnt bother me that this person will be getting a gift. what bothers me is that the last name (the one that wasnt picked) has nothing. i just picked up a starbucks gift card for them. i just received my secret santa gift. and i don't know what it is. for the life of me, i don't know what it is. it's an octagon in shape, about three inches in length and width and about two pounds. it's black and metal and there is a number, 10447, on it. i wish i had a camera to take a photo and show you what it is. a paperweight? i can't ask the person who gave it to me because she was so excited, she knew i'd "LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i had to , i HA D T O act surprised. if i ever find out what it is, i will be sure to post it because i know you(all three of you that read this) are dying to find out. i know it's killing you. i'll get to the bottom of this, if not for me, for you.
i bought my boyfriend an mp3 player for christmas. it's not an ipod, i'm not rich. it's cute and i think he's going to like it a lot. i was hoping to get him more things, i want him to get a massage. but his birthday is comin gup and i was thinking maybe then. i'm not expecting anything huge from him, he jus tspent lik e a hundred dollars on a coat for me. what i'd really like are a pair of boots and target hasthese ones that look like those ugg boots. perfect. but my feet are fff reezing.
i've been making a lot of things recently. i like getting back into that crafty person that i was four years ago.
and yesterday i bumped into someone i used to work with at borders that has moved relatively clos eto me now. and that friendship ended quickly and fiercely, back in april. because of a wedding and a misunderstanding and a lack of maturity. anyhow, i was ignored, which i figured would happen. an di a m sure that things will be said behind backs but i am over that whole part of my post-highschool-highschool life.
ken and i have had a rough few days. i suppose i can credit this to pms, the first pms of my bein gon birth control. i am certain that those extra hormones are the culprit here. but in both cases, i wasn't angry. just really really (really) hurt. and weepy. i guess these things will happen in realtionships and to be honest out there, i am so new to this love thing. i've had a few little things here+there, nothing like a real relationship. i guess i can say that it's really really (really) hard to care about someone so much. i've never(never)cared about anyone in my entire life as much as i care about this person. i mean that with every fiber of my being. an di know deepest in my heart that i would do anything in the world for this person. which is scary and can leave someone feeling completely vulnerable.
last night, i suppose, ended with me feeling more at ease and comfortable. (for now?)
w o r k is boring. honestly. somethings gotta give, anymore. i brought along chuck palahniuk's haunted, i never finished it from the summer. i guess i;ll get back to that.
i bought my boyfriend an mp3 player for christmas. it's not an ipod, i'm not rich. it's cute and i think he's going to like it a lot. i was hoping to get him more things, i want him to get a massage. but his birthday is comin gup and i was thinking maybe then. i'm not expecting anything huge from him, he jus tspent lik e a hundred dollars on a coat for me. what i'd really like are a pair of boots and target hasthese ones that look like those ugg boots. perfect. but my feet are fff reezing.
i've been making a lot of things recently. i like getting back into that crafty person that i was four years ago.
and yesterday i bumped into someone i used to work with at borders that has moved relatively clos eto me now. and that friendship ended quickly and fiercely, back in april. because of a wedding and a misunderstanding and a lack of maturity. anyhow, i was ignored, which i figured would happen. an di a m sure that things will be said behind backs but i am over that whole part of my post-highschool-highschool life.
ken and i have had a rough few days. i suppose i can credit this to pms, the first pms of my bein gon birth control. i am certain that those extra hormones are the culprit here. but in both cases, i wasn't angry. just really really (really) hurt. and weepy. i guess these things will happen in realtionships and to be honest out there, i am so new to this love thing. i've had a few little things here+there, nothing like a real relationship. i guess i can say that it's really really (really) hard to care about someone so much. i've never(never)cared about anyone in my entire life as much as i care about this person. i mean that with every fiber of my being. an di know deepest in my heart that i would do anything in the world for this person. which is scary and can leave someone feeling completely vulnerable.
last night, i suppose, ended with me feeling more at ease and comfortable. (for now?)
w o r k is boring. honestly. somethings gotta give, anymore. i brought along chuck palahniuk's haunted, i never finished it from the summer. i guess i;ll get back to that.