Hate is in the Air
It's been a rather hateful day. My rage is a dangerous one. It starts almost immediately only to build into pure, unfiltered hate for whomever has said or done the wrong thing. Today, Pam pissed me off when she decided that she would use me to eliminate a student she cannot reach. First off, she's obviously not qualified to teach Emerson. Second, she shouldn't look to me to bail her out of anything. I can barely stand to see her an hour a day. She is not good teacher. For starters, her lesson plan sucks! Second, her classroom management skills are non-existent. She's weak.
I carried that anger with me all day. After about 12 hours, I started to look at people again.
I'm at D's right now. A few minutes ago, I went to my car to get my wallet when this van drove by and the two guys in it tried to pick me up. They infuriated me! It's almost 1am and all I want to do is get my wallet so assholes like them don't have it in their possession should they decide to take my car. I guess what pissed me off most was that they scared me. Ever since that waiter died, I've been extra cautious. D's area is much better than mine, but I do have an armed guard in my apartment complex.
All this violence in the world. God, help me so I don't have to be involved in it. I could never kill someone but I could take everything else from them.
Saw Mark for the first time in years, the other night. He had the Tipping Point put on hold for him. I didn't even recognize him at first. He so deliberately came to my store! Anyways, I'm glad he did because he validated my suspicion, which was that I completely forgave him. I don't know what he was thinking. He's so f*cking crazy, even after all these years.
I love my boyfriend with all my heart. He pisses me off sometimes, but he's still the only one I want.
I carried that anger with me all day. After about 12 hours, I started to look at people again.
I'm at D's right now. A few minutes ago, I went to my car to get my wallet when this van drove by and the two guys in it tried to pick me up. They infuriated me! It's almost 1am and all I want to do is get my wallet so assholes like them don't have it in their possession should they decide to take my car. I guess what pissed me off most was that they scared me. Ever since that waiter died, I've been extra cautious. D's area is much better than mine, but I do have an armed guard in my apartment complex.
All this violence in the world. God, help me so I don't have to be involved in it. I could never kill someone but I could take everything else from them.
Saw Mark for the first time in years, the other night. He had the Tipping Point put on hold for him. I didn't even recognize him at first. He so deliberately came to my store! Anyways, I'm glad he did because he validated my suspicion, which was that I completely forgave him. I don't know what he was thinking. He's so f*cking crazy, even after all these years.
I love my boyfriend with all my heart. He pisses me off sometimes, but he's still the only one I want.