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My real life relationships, all of them, romantic or semi-platonic or the fuzzy area in between, have ended in unequivocal, unmitigated disaster of one kind of another. They don't just end, they end, more or less, in ruin. As a result, rather than subject myself to yet another instance of failing to love another human being half as well as I

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what i twig to about eames is that, as a forger, he's constantly involved in this kind of active state of empathy; he's always looking for ways to connect with people, genuinely, as part of his job. he knows how to manipulate them, but he also genuinely *cares* about robert and he wants him to have his moment, he wants him to grow. so there's this sort of constant on-switch when he's around other people.

but that kind of aggressive interest in everyone else is also a defense mechanism, you know--because if you're constantly feeding back to everyone else, then you don't have to answer questions about yourself, or examine your own psyche/motivations/whatever. so i see it as very calculated on eames' part. i relate to it a lot. to me, in a way, it's a lot more of an ultimate rebuff than arthur's cool detachment. because the more you wear your heart on your sleeve, the less reason anyone has to question what that looks like, and what's really going on in your head.

So Eames, in my head canon, anyway, is essentially going, "ha! look at my undying love for you, lolol," and making it into such a thorough and persistent joke that it's impossible to take at face value. So flaunting the absolute truth the way he does becomes the best way to ensure that he never has to deal with the fallout of Arthur ever actually taking him seriously, or ever actually breaking his heart.

oh my god i am sorry to dump all that on you, haha. I HAVE POSSIBLY BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS WAY TOO MUCH.

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jdflasfdj oh god me too. and! and you know this is partly why i can't help seeing eames as the best boyfriend ever, because in my head he kind of can't help himself--he's so used to being that feedback loop for other people, and when you combine that with the constant on-switch and his actual love for arthur, it's like, what can he do except just be on, on, on for arthur all the time?

and i'm sure arthur has no idea what to do with that, i mean, who would?

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i know, it's totally awful, haha! i don't think it'd even be a matter of dumping because i really have such a hard time seeing Arthur even, like, bending that far to begin with, not while Eames is just putting it all on the line. because it would be such a huge risk and no one in Arthur's position would take that, especially not after seeing what happened to Cobb and Mal, and not even being sure if he even *likes* Eames. and like. djf;alsdf. yeah, i feel like Eames would gradually just... withdraw? And Arthur wouldn't even really get it. And Arthur's not getting it would be the absolute worst thing of all for Eames. In fact i suspect that it's the only reason he still holds on--so he doesn't have to deal with Arthur not even noticing, much less caring, when he finally makes himself let go.

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oh my god :(((

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ADFSSGGA BUT OF COURSE THIS IS ONLY ONE VISION OUT OF MANY! D: roll the die again and you have eames making coffee for Arthur while Arthur fumbles around his flat &hearts:

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NO NO, THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I THINK OF IT TOO, YOU JUST ARTICULATED IT SO WELL. I mean, when I write ridiculous shit, I know that it is RIDICULOUS SHIT, because the other option would be to write this incredibly depressing story that echoes how I really think a relationship between the two of them would go.

ffffffffuuuuuuuuuuu

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And it is exactly why I'm going to sit in THIS corner and read your mindless porn and write more ridiculous shit, because I too am otherwise totally bummed out just thinking about it. :((((((

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Thread-jumping here, but oh christ. I've been out all day and I'm just catching up on my flist and it's super late and I'm exhausted and just. I'm like. CRYING. This is so, so true. Heartbreaking and tragic and devastating and just painfully on the mark. OH GOD ARTHUR AND EAMES WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LOVE EACH OTHER AND BE TOGETHER FOREVER? ;__________________;

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I KNOW I KNOW

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Oh my god, I've depressed everyone, I'm so sorry D:

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ahahaha, in lieu of my designating eames the BEST BOYFRIEND EVER in the comment immediately above yours, i feel DULY DEPRESSED now, haha. it is a *very* passive-aggressive way of forcing a relationship where there... basically isn't one. but i don't think it's anything Eames, at least, can help, and i'm pretty sure it probably just makes arthur that much *more* frigid and controlled around eames. OH GOD HOW FUCKED UP ARE THEY. D:

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BUT EAMES COULD CHANGE IF ARTHUR WOULD JUST GIVE HIM A REASON TO >:E