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I keep saying that I don't regret anything.
I keep hoping it's true.
but everyday I find more and more things that i wish I did/didn't do.
but thats not regret?
i don't know.
I love hearing boys say "I'm not sXe anymore"
it brightens my day.
just a bit.
I wish I had enogh cigarettes to last me until next weekend when I can get more.
but I don't. so I'm trying to not smoke today.
I slept in until 2, which helped a lot.
but i really really want one right now. UGH!!!
Tomorrow morning at 8... smoke deck muster at ATT and I get to see that boy I met the night before we all left who was like "why have i never seen you before?!" and he was effing hot and I'd tap that shit in a second.
haha, all of this over a fucking cigarette
I could quit. but I don't want to. I'll wait until quitting will actually be a hard thing to do. and then I can dwell on it for 2 and a half months. oh wait, that's something else. dude, we just had ou piss test. I can take a vicodin now and it won't matter. it's so damn tempting. actually, taking ANYTHING right now is tempting. and yes, it does make things better. even if it is just for a little bit. that's better than nothing, right? and it's not like I can just be drunk all the time here.
yea. but I'm okay.
well, I would be if I could drive around listening to dd,g hella loud and end up somewhere amazing. but that doesn't seem like it's going to happen any time soon. so yea. whatever.
I keep hoping it's true.
but everyday I find more and more things that i wish I did/didn't do.
but thats not regret?
i don't know.
I love hearing boys say "I'm not sXe anymore"
it brightens my day.
just a bit.
I wish I had enogh cigarettes to last me until next weekend when I can get more.
but I don't. so I'm trying to not smoke today.
I slept in until 2, which helped a lot.
but i really really want one right now. UGH!!!
Tomorrow morning at 8... smoke deck muster at ATT and I get to see that boy I met the night before we all left who was like "why have i never seen you before?!" and he was effing hot and I'd tap that shit in a second.
haha, all of this over a fucking cigarette
I could quit. but I don't want to. I'll wait until quitting will actually be a hard thing to do. and then I can dwell on it for 2 and a half months. oh wait, that's something else. dude, we just had ou piss test. I can take a vicodin now and it won't matter. it's so damn tempting. actually, taking ANYTHING right now is tempting. and yes, it does make things better. even if it is just for a little bit. that's better than nothing, right? and it's not like I can just be drunk all the time here.
yea. but I'm okay.
well, I would be if I could drive around listening to dd,g hella loud and end up somewhere amazing. but that doesn't seem like it's going to happen any time soon. so yea. whatever.