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Another day, another December meme post: 
metaphortunate asked me to talk about one thing in my life that I would most like to do that I think is impossible.
...OK the embarrassing thing about this answer is that I'm pretty sure it's Anne McCaffrey's fault, and specifically it's the fault of Dragonsdawn, which is ... not a good book, it's VERY MUCH not a good book, in fact it's in many ways a TRAUMATIZING book (NO SALLAH NO HE'S IN LOVE WITH ROCKS), but ever since I read it at the age of like ten I have really wanted to move to another planet. It would be so cool! It would be SO COOL. Like, the idea of the sense of wonder you'd get from that is overwhelming. This isn't about space, I don't actually care (I know, blasphemy, I'm sorry!) all that much about space, I've never dreamed about being in a spaceship really, in fact the idea kind of freaks me out. But being on a different planet, something totally outside of the entire range of experience on Earth, and trying to build something there -- there's something about that idea that activates my sense of wonder to the max.
And the thing is it is, like, maybe actually possible that within my lifetime, moving to another planet will be hypothetically possible. Like, what do I know? In fifty years maybe generation shipping it out will be a thoroughly feasible option. (Maybe it'll even look like the best option, or in fact the only option, but, uh, that's a depressing road to go down so let's veer away from that.) And when I was younger I would always sigh and be like, "but I have no useful skills that would make me a candidate anyway!" but ... I kind of have a semi-useful skill now, actually? EARTH-TWO WILL NEED ARCHIVISTS.
But as an adult, even if it was offered to me as an option right now, if it was possible in all external senses today, I know I couldn't go; it's not the externals that make it impossible, it's the internals. Because the thing is, I have family and friends and a network of people I value a lot, and I know that when it comes down to it, I am completely not the kind of person who's willing to give that emotional network up for the idea of adventure and a sense of wonder. There are times when I wish I was that kind of person because then I would probably have a more adventurous life! But most of the time I'm pretty OK with it.
Man, it's personal confession o'clock I guess, if anyone else wants to talk about impossible things you would like to do then please come make me feel less embarrassed!
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metaphortunate asked me to talk about one thing in my life that I would most like to do that I think is impossible.
...OK the embarrassing thing about this answer is that I'm pretty sure it's Anne McCaffrey's fault, and specifically it's the fault of Dragonsdawn, which is ... not a good book, it's VERY MUCH not a good book, in fact it's in many ways a TRAUMATIZING book (NO SALLAH NO HE'S IN LOVE WITH ROCKS), but ever since I read it at the age of like ten I have really wanted to move to another planet. It would be so cool! It would be SO COOL. Like, the idea of the sense of wonder you'd get from that is overwhelming. This isn't about space, I don't actually care (I know, blasphemy, I'm sorry!) all that much about space, I've never dreamed about being in a spaceship really, in fact the idea kind of freaks me out. But being on a different planet, something totally outside of the entire range of experience on Earth, and trying to build something there -- there's something about that idea that activates my sense of wonder to the max.
And the thing is it is, like, maybe actually possible that within my lifetime, moving to another planet will be hypothetically possible. Like, what do I know? In fifty years maybe generation shipping it out will be a thoroughly feasible option. (Maybe it'll even look like the best option, or in fact the only option, but, uh, that's a depressing road to go down so let's veer away from that.) And when I was younger I would always sigh and be like, "but I have no useful skills that would make me a candidate anyway!" but ... I kind of have a semi-useful skill now, actually? EARTH-TWO WILL NEED ARCHIVISTS.
But as an adult, even if it was offered to me as an option right now, if it was possible in all external senses today, I know I couldn't go; it's not the externals that make it impossible, it's the internals. Because the thing is, I have family and friends and a network of people I value a lot, and I know that when it comes down to it, I am completely not the kind of person who's willing to give that emotional network up for the idea of adventure and a sense of wonder. There are times when I wish I was that kind of person because then I would probably have a more adventurous life! But most of the time I'm pretty OK with it.
Man, it's personal confession o'clock I guess, if anyone else wants to talk about impossible things you would like to do then please come make me feel less embarrassed!
This entry is cross-posted at Livejournal from http://skygiants.dreamwidth.org/393639.html. Please feel free to comment here or there! There are currently
comments on Dreamwidth.