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*shy wave*

I'm 19 years old, and I have grown up with babies being born left and right on both sides of my family. My younger brother is 18, and my sister is 13. Our cousins on our dad's side are 14 (well, 13, but she'll be 14 in 19 days), 12, 5, and 4. On our mother's side, we have a 12 year old, a 10 year old, a 9 year old, a 4 year old, a 3 (at least, I think he's 3) year old, a 2 year old, and a 10-month-old. (the 4 year old and 10-month-old baby courtesy of my 24 year old cousin, and my mom has 2 sisters and 3 brothers)

So because of all of these babies, I have become really good (well, I can at least feed them, change their diapers, and make sure they're safe--I'm VERY paranoid about small children and danger) at taking care of babies and small children.

Back last summer, the 10-month-old was only 2 months old, and his mother decided that I would hold him all the time. Most of my older relatives (like, around their 50's and 60's)--it was my grandparents' 50th anniversary--kept on telling how cute and right I looked holding the baby. This unsettled me. I had a boyfriend at the time, and I couldn't help but interpret the connotations as they couldn't wait to see me with my own children.

Now, I'm sure the connotations imply they'd love to see me have my own children when I'm considerably older, but at the time, I was thinking, "I'm only 18 years old, and my boyfriend is on the other side of the Pacific Ocean. I can barely take care of myself. What makes them think I'd be a good mother right now?"

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On another note, I was staying with my dad's side of the family during Christmas break, and the cousins' constant fighting (well, the 14, 12, and 5 year old, anyway) over stupid crap was enough to drive me homesick. The 5 year old was fine--just put in the Transformers DVD and he was as happy as a clam. But his older sisters were insane. Their constant bickering made me decide at that time that should I ever get married and be a mother someday, I only want ONE child.

Have there ever been times like this that affected how many children you wanted in the future?

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