youngjae/daehyun: you and i were made for this
you and i were made for this
youngjae/daehyun
pg-13, pacific rim au
you and i were made for this.
daehyun lost everythng in a kaiju attack.
he remembers those days when his mother would caress his cheeks when they're stained with tears because he had tripped over his own feet. he remembers those days when his father would swing him by the arms when he had scored the highest in his class. he even rememebers his brother, who would always pick on him but always there in the right moment to give him a hug.
he remembers those days.
he also remembers those days when his mother would cry silently as she watched her husband and son head out for another day. he also remembers those days when his father would tell him to never, ever leave the bunker. he also remembers those days when his brother would bring him into the big, big robot, and tell him all about the stories of how he and father kicked some monster's ass.
he also remembers those days.
but those days are gone.
he was thirteen.
---
he isn't even a little surprise when captain bang yongguk from the jaeger program came for him. afterall, his father and brother had been one of the best, so in times like this, it is to be expected.
but what he didn't expect, was to be drift compatible with an annoying fuck.
yoo youngjae is everything daehyun used to be. he's loud and cheery, spiteful and sarcastic. there's always a smile on his face, as if the war never happened, as if nobody ever died.
daehyun is a little confused, and perhaps it's because of how youngjae reminded him of what he used to be, that made him so intolerable. because maybe daehyun wanted to be like that too; maybe daehyun wished he could be like that too.
if only.
---
"we will not talk about it." daehyun says, sparing no glance at the boy beside him as he steps into the clamps. everything is secured and ready for the simulator to start.
youngjae looks over to his right and after a moment of silent, he finally says. "yeah. okay."
---
daehyun sees his mother, crying and crying and she won't stop crying. he sees hybrid vega, ripped open by ironbone, and even though daehyun's not compatible with his father or brother, he still feels the pain of getting his limbs ripped apart, getting his body crushed. he sees blood everywhere, and he can hear screams - his own? no, another boy's. daehyun sees a boy, his age? perhaps younger, curled up with his body squeezed in the little space between the rubbles. he sees the boy crying, crawling away from the gravel and bodies and crawling and crawling - to saftey? to nowhere.
he sees the little boy again. this time he's running, running so fast it he can't even see his legs move. his breath is all over the place, but there's no time to stop and rest, because monsters are chasing him. he sees the boy, wedged between the rubbles and his face dirty and dusty. he sees his face and he sees yoo youngjae staring right back at him, little tears in the corners of his eyes.
then he sees the ocean again, and he knows he's back. he can feel something different pulsing through him. his left leg moves forward, his right leg moves forward, not by his own will but at the same time he wanted them to move. daehyun glances over and he sees youngjae smiling, lifting one arm and then the other, and then all of the sudden daehyun wants to smile too.
he's just happy to be alive.
---
they don't talk about it. but at the same time they talk all the time now. daehyun would pat youngjae's back when they see each other in the hallway. youngjae would save a spot for daehyun in the cafeteria. sometimes they sleep in each other's quarters, breathing in the same air, sharing the same little space.
they're best friends, but also just a little more than that.
---
the first kaiju appears a week after the simulation. when daehyun steps into lapin mira, he finds youngjae already strapped in, gear ready and helmet on.
youngjae's shaking all over, his eyes are wide and everything is written in them - his fear, his will to survive, his wants and needs and daehyun.
daehyun grabs youngjae's hand and gives him a hard squeeze. so maybe he's scared too, but then again, who isn't?
---
two days after they shared their first kaiju kill, daehyun and youngjae shares their first kiss.
it was supposed to be romantic and daehyun was supposed to planned everything out. junhong was supposed to help him but that little bastard always ditched him for jongup.
so everything went the opposite of good, daehyun spills drinks all over himself and youngjae elbowes him so many times he lost count.
in the end they ended up sleeping in jongup's bed, they bump nose and everything smells like stale coffee. but they kiss anyways, and daehyun thinks that everything is worth it.
---
life goes on as usual. they have training to go through everyday. they kill some more kaijus. lapin mira gets upgrade with new swords and missiles.
but everyday, in between the busy schedules, daehyun would find himself hiding behind a corner with youngjae, kissing each other hard and bruising like there's no tomorrow. because really, there might not be.
---
things really went to hell a month later, when two category v showed up.
---
yongguk and himchan's romeo gipsy is already down, taking the blow that was meant for aphla zelos. daehyun doesn't want to think about the possibility of his two most trusted hyungs dead, so he focuses on the fight ahead, trying to duck from leatherjaw's long, swiveling tail. he can see alpha zelos from his peripheral vision, blasting off blueknife's head - or is it heads? daehyun couldn't really tell from the blood running down from his temple and into his eyes. either way, he's glad at least alpha zelos is still able to fight back, albeit the broken arm and crippled leg. junhong and jongup have the strongest bond in history, so they're supposed to be the best of the best (and everytime daehyun hear that he wants to scoff because they're supposed to the one looking after the maknaes, not the other way around.)
lapin mira takes another hit from leatherjaws and daehyun thinks that this might be the end. there's water everywhere and daehyun isn't even sure if their canons are working anymore. he looks over to youngjae, and youngjae isn't looking back like usual - he's gasping, there are tears all over his face and his hands are shaking - so badly daehyun can almost feel it.
youngjae is breaking, and daehyun isn't sure if he can fix this because yeah, he's breaking too.
leatherjaws screams in the most horrible way, and bites the top of lapin mira. daehyun pushes forward, with whatever he's left with, and wraps those broken arms around the kaiju. if they're going down, they're taking this fucker with them. youngjae breathes out shakily, he's breaking, but he's ready.
they all are.
---
daehyun sometimes wishes that he had the guts to say it. to say things like you're beautiful, never stop smiling, and i love you.
but he doesn't. he tucks them all inside in the back of his mind, and only allow words like you're stupid, fuck off, and i hate you.
but when he looks over at youngjae, fingers entwined with water rushing down their throats and pressure squeezing their lungs, he thinks he can see the little light in youngjae's eyes, and this time he doesn't say anything.
but he's loud enough.
---
i love you.
author's note:
not beta'ed, sorry for all the mistakes it's like 3 in the morning but my hand just won't stop typing.
always wanted to write pacific rim au but yea idk this is pretty sloppy i'll try harder next time zz
daejae dead or alive???? tbc lol
youngjae/daehyun
pg-13, pacific rim au
you and i were made for this.
daehyun lost everythng in a kaiju attack.
he remembers those days when his mother would caress his cheeks when they're stained with tears because he had tripped over his own feet. he remembers those days when his father would swing him by the arms when he had scored the highest in his class. he even rememebers his brother, who would always pick on him but always there in the right moment to give him a hug.
he remembers those days.
he also remembers those days when his mother would cry silently as she watched her husband and son head out for another day. he also remembers those days when his father would tell him to never, ever leave the bunker. he also remembers those days when his brother would bring him into the big, big robot, and tell him all about the stories of how he and father kicked some monster's ass.
he also remembers those days.
but those days are gone.
he was thirteen.
---
he isn't even a little surprise when captain bang yongguk from the jaeger program came for him. afterall, his father and brother had been one of the best, so in times like this, it is to be expected.
but what he didn't expect, was to be drift compatible with an annoying fuck.
yoo youngjae is everything daehyun used to be. he's loud and cheery, spiteful and sarcastic. there's always a smile on his face, as if the war never happened, as if nobody ever died.
daehyun is a little confused, and perhaps it's because of how youngjae reminded him of what he used to be, that made him so intolerable. because maybe daehyun wanted to be like that too; maybe daehyun wished he could be like that too.
if only.
---
"we will not talk about it." daehyun says, sparing no glance at the boy beside him as he steps into the clamps. everything is secured and ready for the simulator to start.
youngjae looks over to his right and after a moment of silent, he finally says. "yeah. okay."
---
daehyun sees his mother, crying and crying and she won't stop crying. he sees hybrid vega, ripped open by ironbone, and even though daehyun's not compatible with his father or brother, he still feels the pain of getting his limbs ripped apart, getting his body crushed. he sees blood everywhere, and he can hear screams - his own? no, another boy's. daehyun sees a boy, his age? perhaps younger, curled up with his body squeezed in the little space between the rubbles. he sees the boy crying, crawling away from the gravel and bodies and crawling and crawling - to saftey? to nowhere.
he sees the little boy again. this time he's running, running so fast it he can't even see his legs move. his breath is all over the place, but there's no time to stop and rest, because monsters are chasing him. he sees the boy, wedged between the rubbles and his face dirty and dusty. he sees his face and he sees yoo youngjae staring right back at him, little tears in the corners of his eyes.
then he sees the ocean again, and he knows he's back. he can feel something different pulsing through him. his left leg moves forward, his right leg moves forward, not by his own will but at the same time he wanted them to move. daehyun glances over and he sees youngjae smiling, lifting one arm and then the other, and then all of the sudden daehyun wants to smile too.
he's just happy to be alive.
---
they don't talk about it. but at the same time they talk all the time now. daehyun would pat youngjae's back when they see each other in the hallway. youngjae would save a spot for daehyun in the cafeteria. sometimes they sleep in each other's quarters, breathing in the same air, sharing the same little space.
they're best friends, but also just a little more than that.
---
the first kaiju appears a week after the simulation. when daehyun steps into lapin mira, he finds youngjae already strapped in, gear ready and helmet on.
youngjae's shaking all over, his eyes are wide and everything is written in them - his fear, his will to survive, his wants and needs and daehyun.
daehyun grabs youngjae's hand and gives him a hard squeeze. so maybe he's scared too, but then again, who isn't?
---
two days after they shared their first kaiju kill, daehyun and youngjae shares their first kiss.
it was supposed to be romantic and daehyun was supposed to planned everything out. junhong was supposed to help him but that little bastard always ditched him for jongup.
so everything went the opposite of good, daehyun spills drinks all over himself and youngjae elbowes him so many times he lost count.
in the end they ended up sleeping in jongup's bed, they bump nose and everything smells like stale coffee. but they kiss anyways, and daehyun thinks that everything is worth it.
---
life goes on as usual. they have training to go through everyday. they kill some more kaijus. lapin mira gets upgrade with new swords and missiles.
but everyday, in between the busy schedules, daehyun would find himself hiding behind a corner with youngjae, kissing each other hard and bruising like there's no tomorrow. because really, there might not be.
---
things really went to hell a month later, when two category v showed up.
---
yongguk and himchan's romeo gipsy is already down, taking the blow that was meant for aphla zelos. daehyun doesn't want to think about the possibility of his two most trusted hyungs dead, so he focuses on the fight ahead, trying to duck from leatherjaw's long, swiveling tail. he can see alpha zelos from his peripheral vision, blasting off blueknife's head - or is it heads? daehyun couldn't really tell from the blood running down from his temple and into his eyes. either way, he's glad at least alpha zelos is still able to fight back, albeit the broken arm and crippled leg. junhong and jongup have the strongest bond in history, so they're supposed to be the best of the best (and everytime daehyun hear that he wants to scoff because they're supposed to the one looking after the maknaes, not the other way around.)
lapin mira takes another hit from leatherjaws and daehyun thinks that this might be the end. there's water everywhere and daehyun isn't even sure if their canons are working anymore. he looks over to youngjae, and youngjae isn't looking back like usual - he's gasping, there are tears all over his face and his hands are shaking - so badly daehyun can almost feel it.
youngjae is breaking, and daehyun isn't sure if he can fix this because yeah, he's breaking too.
leatherjaws screams in the most horrible way, and bites the top of lapin mira. daehyun pushes forward, with whatever he's left with, and wraps those broken arms around the kaiju. if they're going down, they're taking this fucker with them. youngjae breathes out shakily, he's breaking, but he's ready.
they all are.
---
daehyun sometimes wishes that he had the guts to say it. to say things like you're beautiful, never stop smiling, and i love you.
but he doesn't. he tucks them all inside in the back of his mind, and only allow words like you're stupid, fuck off, and i hate you.
but when he looks over at youngjae, fingers entwined with water rushing down their throats and pressure squeezing their lungs, he thinks he can see the little light in youngjae's eyes, and this time he doesn't say anything.
but he's loud enough.
---
i love you.
author's note:
not beta'ed, sorry for all the mistakes it's like 3 in the morning but my hand just won't stop typing.
always wanted to write pacific rim au but yea idk this is pretty sloppy i'll try harder next time zz
daejae dead or alive???? tbc lol