ToA, spoilers (pffft to whom still anyway..)
(Okay me, I've been up for 20 hours on 2 hours of sleep, so I hope that I'll be able to force myself into bed as soon as possible while pragmatically neglecting to write this blog entry in a manner any less poorly than how a 20-year-old mom of three would write about her Mary Sue's relationship with Jesus in a Twilight series-based universe. Already tl;dr > I'll just go yap myself stupidly and self-indulgingly to sleep now, k?)
I decided to this blog-writing excess because I remember that 2 years (and mysteriously only like 13 blog entries) ago I dedicated a paragraph to disappointedly mocking that silly green-haired replica kid suddenly removing himself from my game. Now while that was a pretty mean trick for the creators to pull, indirectly causing me to put down the game for months to come (I think it was in favor of schoolwork even), they sorta made up for it by his magical revival later on. This was where at first I just wanted to slap his casually unmasked shota face for daring to show up after I had finally gotten myself to playing a game that was presumably going to be Sync-less, but then my temper turned to love and dirty thoughts all over again.
However after Sync's revival, another ToA-less hiatus soon followed because of some highly vexing incompatibility issues between my flip top-covered PS2 and the tv. Therefore it's only been recently, once I finally got around to getting another tv as a temporary solution to this issue, that I've reached the point in the game where the God Generals get taken out one by one for good (or at least I guess).
And admittedly, where in 2008 I was still totally lolwhut at how Sync suddenly declared himself a piece of trash and then took it upon himself to jump into a planet's core, it has become a lot easier to appreciate his mindset after two years that have been marked by pretty strong depressive overtones and all.
AND THUS I UNDERSTAND NOW THAT ALL THESE EVENTS HAVE BEEN PREDETERMINED BY THE SCORE IN ORDER TO HAVE ME UNDERSTAND SYNC'S FEELINGS BETTER.
And so, the confrontation started.
Sync opened the fight saying some powerful stuff about being nothing but an empty shell, but in a cool and threatening way, spoken as a true hero for the hatred-ridden suicidal(!). What followed then was mostly the usual 'Tales of' boss gangbanging and screaming of attack names that drown out all the ongoing dialogue amidst the cacaphony, but what I got was that Anise seemed in disbelief about his self-hatred, and at that point one really has to cheer for her, because Sync is after all the most beautiful creature in the entire game, and one ought to slaughter him with proper respect and compassion (especially if even fuck fucking Mohs has received lots of pity).
After the other party members had succeeded in killing him, all whilst my Guy was mostly occupied performing evasive pas de deux dances and taunts (since I wanted to relish the happy final showdown and the fight would have been over too soon otherwise?), I also felt like watching Sync's final scene in the anime. Altogether, it pleased me a bit more here than in the game (that is, by ignoring Legretta's boobs presence -and the insulting fact that she dared die after her leader-). Not just because of Sync's Japanese voice-acting being way more tolerable, but also because he spoke a different, more recognizable line after his defeat. There was his final reference to being freed from a world he deems worthless, accompanied by his bittersweet laughter, and Anise on the other hand freaking out, apparently showing some genuine care for him (something I thought was hinted at too subtly in the game, where she'd just go on about how he had Ion's face blahblah). Sync seemed relieved over dying, but only to the ambivalent extent to which one could rejoice a death that presents itself as the only escape from a painful existence. It was touching, and cute. I totally believed and ate the drama heartily this time.
Addendum: ~The significance of the dead shota God General because I sleep like a Lubyanka prisoner in the 30's~
Predictably, characters that I can for some reason more strongly relate to are on another level of importance to me than random fictional guys I haremize and just like to incidentally save cm material of. For instance, shota that are on the antagonistic side of epic conflicts, typically set on destroying the world and erasing humanity, somehow tend to make it to the top of my significance ranking easily. Sync got his status boost from another aspect as well though, and I think it was once I learned he was all like I HATE TO HAVE BEEN BORN. Not surprisingly, since I'm a hilarious emo kid at heart, I used to do this at times as well, going as far as quietly blaming my mom for selfishly putting a person in a world dictated by decline and suffering. What the hell did she expect to come from it anyway. And I'm so useless too. Pffff. Living, WHAT A PAIN.
I've regained most of my original narcism since then though, so I'm not hating on the fact I've existed all that much. I guess it helps in that respect that I've never been dumped in a vulcano because I wasn't effeminate enough to replace Ion or whatever. But emo sentiments enjoy lingering, and they make it easy to sympathize with Sync's lack of self-esteem, even more so with his suicidal craziness. The key sympathy point about that would be that he has by a form of unconventional rationality decided that his life is worthless, but he limits his bawwing about that, which also explains why I didn't see his first suicide attempt coming at all. Instead he has also come to conclude there is one thing to blame for his life, and he fights to the death for destroying that one thing. To me there is delicious recognizition in the ambivalence of his rational justifications for wanting to die on the one hand and maybe less rational justifications for living on in spite, even because of how his existence sucks.
In the very colored way I see things anyway at least lawl.
What I liked about the anime is that he didn't mention that goal of destroying the Score after his defeat, and that actually made more sense to me, because even in a world where this ultimate goal would be fulfilled, he'd still long for death. Unlike what goes for the other Generals (I think?), the goal of destroying the Planet's memory wasn't anything beyond an obsession to Sync, the first and only occupation he had decided to dedicate himself to while he was there (and possibly even a subconsciously chosen excuse for not killing himself out of some form of hesitation), rather than a dream he actually wished to realize for himself or others. In such a case simply dying while fighting for that goal would be more satisfying in the end than accomplishing it. This is ultimately why Sync inspires me to the core of my ambitionless, obsessive, combattive mentality.
Oh hay maybe next time I'll write ten pages about why I used to relate to LUKE as well. Or why Gloomietta annoys me, or Legretta bores me (except for her 'I refuse to acknowledge that my feelings are controlled by the planet's memory' line in the anime), and why Asch' death was.. maybe not as lame as it at first seemed (random soldiers mass-penetrating him tho, what?), but at least really awfully timed for me (how could they even expect me to mourn it if Sync has to go right afterwards). Oh but I loved his pale corpse face. Imo Asch' alpha male attitude had gotten obtrusively out of hand towards the end of the game, but as a corpse he was finally quiet and endearing again. Next up should be Van, but who cares, I'm more excited about facing Nebilim. I think the game tries too hard to create amounts of sympathy for Van of which he isn't worthy. It's bothersome and I don't really want more of it but I'm certain it's right around the corner.
AS A SPECIAL VIP SERVICE FOR SYNC I HAD INVESTED LIKE 10 HOURS INTO SIDEQUESTING FOREHAND SO I COULD BEAT HIM UP IN FANCY COSTUMES AND TOKUNAGA WEARING AN ANT LION OUTFIT. KGGG I AM BURSTING WITH FONONS, AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET BACK TO SLEEP. I WISH I HAD AN ONEECHAN LIKE JIGGLYPUFF. Seriously.
I decided to this blog-writing excess because I remember that 2 years (and mysteriously only like 13 blog entries) ago I dedicated a paragraph to disappointedly mocking that silly green-haired replica kid suddenly removing himself from my game. Now while that was a pretty mean trick for the creators to pull, indirectly causing me to put down the game for months to come (I think it was in favor of schoolwork even), they sorta made up for it by his magical revival later on. This was where at first I just wanted to slap his casually unmasked shota face for daring to show up after I had finally gotten myself to playing a game that was presumably going to be Sync-less, but then my temper turned to love and dirty thoughts all over again.
However after Sync's revival, another ToA-less hiatus soon followed because of some highly vexing incompatibility issues between my flip top-covered PS2 and the tv. Therefore it's only been recently, once I finally got around to getting another tv as a temporary solution to this issue, that I've reached the point in the game where the God Generals get taken out one by one for good (or at least I guess).
And admittedly, where in 2008 I was still totally lolwhut at how Sync suddenly declared himself a piece of trash and then took it upon himself to jump into a planet's core, it has become a lot easier to appreciate his mindset after two years that have been marked by pretty strong depressive overtones and all.
AND THUS I UNDERSTAND NOW THAT ALL THESE EVENTS HAVE BEEN PREDETERMINED BY THE SCORE IN ORDER TO HAVE ME UNDERSTAND SYNC'S FEELINGS BETTER.
And so, the confrontation started.
Sync opened the fight saying some powerful stuff about being nothing but an empty shell, but in a cool and threatening way, spoken as a true hero for the hatred-ridden suicidal(!). What followed then was mostly the usual 'Tales of' boss gangbanging and screaming of attack names that drown out all the ongoing dialogue amidst the cacaphony, but what I got was that Anise seemed in disbelief about his self-hatred, and at that point one really has to cheer for her, because Sync is after all the most beautiful creature in the entire game, and one ought to slaughter him with proper respect and compassion (especially if even fuck fucking Mohs has received lots of pity).
After the other party members had succeeded in killing him, all whilst my Guy was mostly occupied performing evasive pas de deux dances and taunts (since I wanted to relish the happy final showdown and the fight would have been over too soon otherwise?), I also felt like watching Sync's final scene in the anime. Altogether, it pleased me a bit more here than in the game (that is, by ignoring Legretta's boobs presence -and the insulting fact that she dared die after her leader-). Not just because of Sync's Japanese voice-acting being way more tolerable, but also because he spoke a different, more recognizable line after his defeat. There was his final reference to being freed from a world he deems worthless, accompanied by his bittersweet laughter, and Anise on the other hand freaking out, apparently showing some genuine care for him (something I thought was hinted at too subtly in the game, where she'd just go on about how he had Ion's face blahblah). Sync seemed relieved over dying, but only to the ambivalent extent to which one could rejoice a death that presents itself as the only escape from a painful existence. It was touching, and cute. I totally believed and ate the drama heartily this time.
Addendum: ~The significance of the dead shota God General because I sleep like a Lubyanka prisoner in the 30's~
Predictably, characters that I can for some reason more strongly relate to are on another level of importance to me than random fictional guys I haremize and just like to incidentally save cm material of. For instance, shota that are on the antagonistic side of epic conflicts, typically set on destroying the world and erasing humanity, somehow tend to make it to the top of my significance ranking easily. Sync got his status boost from another aspect as well though, and I think it was once I learned he was all like I HATE TO HAVE BEEN BORN. Not surprisingly, since I'm a hilarious emo kid at heart, I used to do this at times as well, going as far as quietly blaming my mom for selfishly putting a person in a world dictated by decline and suffering. What the hell did she expect to come from it anyway. And I'm so useless too. Pffff. Living, WHAT A PAIN.
I've regained most of my original narcism since then though, so I'm not hating on the fact I've existed all that much. I guess it helps in that respect that I've never been dumped in a vulcano because I wasn't effeminate enough to replace Ion or whatever. But emo sentiments enjoy lingering, and they make it easy to sympathize with Sync's lack of self-esteem, even more so with his suicidal craziness. The key sympathy point about that would be that he has by a form of unconventional rationality decided that his life is worthless, but he limits his bawwing about that, which also explains why I didn't see his first suicide attempt coming at all. Instead he has also come to conclude there is one thing to blame for his life, and he fights to the death for destroying that one thing. To me there is delicious recognizition in the ambivalence of his rational justifications for wanting to die on the one hand and maybe less rational justifications for living on in spite, even because of how his existence sucks.
In the very colored way I see things anyway at least lawl.
What I liked about the anime is that he didn't mention that goal of destroying the Score after his defeat, and that actually made more sense to me, because even in a world where this ultimate goal would be fulfilled, he'd still long for death. Unlike what goes for the other Generals (I think?), the goal of destroying the Planet's memory wasn't anything beyond an obsession to Sync, the first and only occupation he had decided to dedicate himself to while he was there (and possibly even a subconsciously chosen excuse for not killing himself out of some form of hesitation), rather than a dream he actually wished to realize for himself or others. In such a case simply dying while fighting for that goal would be more satisfying in the end than accomplishing it. This is ultimately why Sync inspires me to the core of my ambitionless, obsessive, combattive mentality.
Oh hay maybe next time I'll write ten pages about why I used to relate to LUKE as well. Or why Gloomietta annoys me, or Legretta bores me (except for her 'I refuse to acknowledge that my feelings are controlled by the planet's memory' line in the anime), and why Asch' death was.. maybe not as lame as it at first seemed (random soldiers mass-penetrating him tho, what?), but at least really awfully timed for me (how could they even expect me to mourn it if Sync has to go right afterwards). Oh but I loved his pale corpse face. Imo Asch' alpha male attitude had gotten obtrusively out of hand towards the end of the game, but as a corpse he was finally quiet and endearing again. Next up should be Van, but who cares, I'm more excited about facing Nebilim. I think the game tries too hard to create amounts of sympathy for Van of which he isn't worthy. It's bothersome and I don't really want more of it but I'm certain it's right around the corner.
AS A SPECIAL VIP SERVICE FOR SYNC I HAD INVESTED LIKE 10 HOURS INTO SIDEQUESTING FOREHAND SO I COULD BEAT HIM UP IN FANCY COSTUMES AND TOKUNAGA WEARING AN ANT LION OUTFIT. KGGG I AM BURSTING WITH FONONS, AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET BACK TO SLEEP. I WISH I HAD AN ONEECHAN LIKE JIGGLYPUFF. Seriously.