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okay. i'm not usually the type that parades my problems to the world, but GOD DAMN IT! it's not enough i lost my grandma not even a fucking year ago. it's not enough i learned my little sister has brain cancer 2 months ago. AND NOW MY GRANDPA HAS CANCER. the doctors aren't sure if surgery will help because they don't think he'll even live through the surgery. WHAT ELSE IS GOING TO BE THROWN AT ME IN THE COURSE OF A FUCKING YEAR?! i can't take it anymore! i'm literally at my wits end and i don't know how to deal with all of this...and now here i am sitting by myself in the wake of some of the worst knews that could have been dealt my way, and i feel like throwing myself off the nearest tall building. who's next? my mom? my dad? me? if i lose my little sister and my grandpa...i'm gonna fall apart at the seams..scratch that..i'm already falling apart...everything is falling apart