too many days indoors...
so I'm spending the week indoors in Jersey because it's a bit of a hassle to go to the city (since I'm kind of far inland). And I didn't want to trouble people if I could help it. So I sit here in their guest room every day, going online and watching tv. I miss the comforts of home. I miss knowing where everything is and just having a reliable schedule. I know in time I will find that here (well, in New York), but it's just this waiting time that makes me a bit antsy and uneasy. I have too much time to think and worry. It's definitely not as bad as it could be, in fact, it's not even as bad is it was when I went to college. The experience of having lived on my own in college and being able to discover Davis and surrounding areas has prepared me for this. Despite New York being much larger and much more complicated, I am excited (and also a bit nervous) about exploring the city. I just keep reminding myself that this is the right place for me right now. As much as I miss the comforts of So. Cal, this is the place where I can grow most right now, with the most opportunities for me. It's always hard for me to leave home. It's hard for me to relinquish control and ask my parents and brother to depend on themselves. Blah... hmm... waayy too much time on my hands because I seem to be rehashing the same issues in my head... blah! Well, can't wait till Saturday when I finally move in... so that I can settle in, and explore the city for a couple of days before classes start!