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well...it's been quite a while i can say. things have been on and off good. i don't know. first of all let me just say that this is some serious procrastination and exams are just gonna kill me...which absolutely sucks...but whatever. but so i just went and attempted to look at my room for next year and went w/ mary to try and see her room too...but no luck, they were locked. oh well. so we went and sat behind main for a while and that was...nice. then we went down to the ampitheatre which was just really weird. we had this really intense conversation about madeira and how we never really wanted to leave and how this school meant so much to us and it was like our home. i don't ever want to leave this place...really, without it i'd be no one and i wouldn't have the friends that i do and i just wouldn't appreciate the person i am or my friends like i do now. i love my friends from madeira so much. and on another note...i miss y'all like woah. i mean it's almost like you're not gone cuz i've gotten to see y'all quite a bit...like caroline it was so much fun getting to spend time w/ you on friday. that was great. and then i got to see claire on saturday and even though i only talked to her for like 2 minutes...it seems like things are better between us then they were when she left. but yeah. so i don't know...i'm quite content w/ myself right now and i should really be stressing about exams a lot. but it's only sophomore year and exams are only 20% of your grade...right? and i mean i do know some things...kinda. but yeah. i've also come to the conclusion that i don't think that this summer will be that bad. i mean i will hopefully see some people over the summer and i'm going to the beach, and i might go to kentucky if i qualify for nationals, and i'm going to atleast one concert...possibly a few more, fleming is coming here for a few days and we better see everyone, i'm going down to GA w/ fleming to her lakehouse. it just seems like it may not be that bad. i've decided that i'm going to go running just about every day...starting with friday of this week. that sounds crazy, but i'm not going to let one of those 25 new students trying out for soccer take my place. i just hope we do get some good kids so those shitty jvers don't move up and so i have someone to play center mid with! though i don't think it's possible for them to fill the spots...but maybe just something to build on/with. okay...so enough about soccer. maybe i should actually do some work. because i don't think my parents would appreciate it too much if i failed my exams. though...they didn't seem to mind that much when i failed my math final last year. haha that was quite funny. but anyways, i'm going to work now. i heart madeira and i heart all my friends. i am just happy, and that's so amazing because i haven't been really truly happy in quite a while. it's very nice. yay... :)