your war is won my friends you finially done
I
had
a
bad
day.
tired something
new with my hair
but it didnt turn out
the way I wanted it to
.lame.
but everyone at school
loved it.
andrew didnt mention anything about it.
I had to ask him "does it look bad to you?"
(after 3 periods)
his responce. "no"
just a no.
not a...."you look great" or
"ill love anything you do to your hair"
but no it was just a no.
so I was mad because he has a hard time
showing his
love
for me
I can
NEVER
tell when he is happy to see me
I wish he had a
~twinkle~
in his eye when he sees me.
a
~twinkle~
riley had.
*begins to cry*
but I hate riley so much he put me through hell.
and I know "this is what highschools all about"
its just that I never knew someone could fool me so well into falling in
love
with them and could bring me
down
so hard.
but Andrew is the best boyfriend ever he really does care cuz he bugged me about it
all day.
"whats wrong?"
"you look so sad babe.why?"
"tell me whats wrong please"
and if I told him
((which I did at taco bell when he went over everything cause we always get through things like this))
then he would tell me and it wouldnt matter much.
Im the kind of girl that fishes for compliments
a&
then hates it & cant believe that they are saying it because
its true or not.
I hate going to school
knowing andrew might to
looking at some other girl.
and I
hate
myself for not
believing in me at all.
I have always thought
I was an
ugly duckling
&
the fat girl in class.
I have no idea what messed up my
childhood
to make me be this way
im too confusing.
even for myself.
it really makes me sick.