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i haven't posted here in a long long time. so i don't know if anyone will see this.sorry for the no capitals though my shift key is broken.
today i saw my psychologist i see her once a month so it was pretty normal but forsome reason i just started crying but it wasn't like i was really sad i just needed too because my l ife is so good for me.i just thought about all the things in the past and how horribly sad and awful i felt all the time.how i obsessed over things even i didn't understand.i was totally messed up for no good reason at all. but now i'm finally starting to look back and reflect on it instead of just get into this crazy never talking about it needs to be talked about at some point so id id today and it felt really good.
i know tyson you might be reading this. so let me say I'M SO GLAD YOUR GONE. you are a fucked up person to a degree i can't even beleive. i know you don't really think you are so if you read this you don't have to believe a word i say but.you really fucked me up with our whole relationship thing and i will never forgive you for it so if you come back don't expect a warm hug. despite that i hope your doing well in las vegas
i'm so suprised at how well me and lens relationship is going its like.whoa. but sometimes i get this irrational fear that he's gonna stop liking me and hate me and think i'm crazy. i just have this fear that i'm not in control of everything i can't control him and control is a thing i need to have. but i'm really trying to like chill out and just let things go and let things be good.
i really really need to eat better and lose a few pounds i eat the shittiest food everyday its pathetic. fast food and soda like everyday of my life. i need to start excersing but i just feel like theres not time for it theres no place to do it etc. anyways that is all and i hope everyone who reads this is doing well
today i saw my psychologist i see her once a month so it was pretty normal but forsome reason i just started crying but it wasn't like i was really sad i just needed too because my l ife is so good for me.i just thought about all the things in the past and how horribly sad and awful i felt all the time.how i obsessed over things even i didn't understand.i was totally messed up for no good reason at all. but now i'm finally starting to look back and reflect on it instead of just get into this crazy never talking about it needs to be talked about at some point so id id today and it felt really good.
i know tyson you might be reading this. so let me say I'M SO GLAD YOUR GONE. you are a fucked up person to a degree i can't even beleive. i know you don't really think you are so if you read this you don't have to believe a word i say but.you really fucked me up with our whole relationship thing and i will never forgive you for it so if you come back don't expect a warm hug. despite that i hope your doing well in las vegas
i'm so suprised at how well me and lens relationship is going its like.whoa. but sometimes i get this irrational fear that he's gonna stop liking me and hate me and think i'm crazy. i just have this fear that i'm not in control of everything i can't control him and control is a thing i need to have. but i'm really trying to like chill out and just let things go and let things be good.
i really really need to eat better and lose a few pounds i eat the shittiest food everyday its pathetic. fast food and soda like everyday of my life. i need to start excersing but i just feel like theres not time for it theres no place to do it etc. anyways that is all and i hope everyone who reads this is doing well