Happy christmasnewyearbacktoschool.
Holy crap, it's been a long time since I've updated. I guess things just got really busy there for a while...well, they still are, but hey. School's good, I did really well on my exams and final grades and such. So one more semester of financial aid for me. I just hope I can keep it up this semester, because I'm not particularly fond of any of my classes. Really, I just feel like I need a break, even though I just got back from home a few weeks ago. I'm so tired of floating around with these friends I don't really connect with, and who probably don't even consider me a real part of their group. I wish I were better at meeting people, but I'm quite frightened of them, and everyone's got their groups set up and such, so I feel like I'm stuck. For now most of my social life involves my boyfriend, which I know isn't good. Especially because he does have a lot of friends, and I don't want to be clingy. He says I'm not interfering or anything, but still I get a little paranoid. I don't want to get dumped and then I'd really be fucked in the social setting. Not that I do much more than study nowadays. I'm the square - the one who doesn't do pot or drugs or a lot of alcohol (I'm not medically allowed, I found out over the break that I have a seizure tendency, so I have to be careful if I don't want to fuck myself up). It makes me feel a little boring, a little out of the circle. I'm kind of in a hopeless situation right now. Jesus, these blog entries are depressing. I guess it's cathartic.