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since monday this week has been an incredibly draining one.
monday night I had a long talk with Sandi about what she's been through, and it was difficult to hear- but I want to be supportive and try to understand. Its just hard to imagine the evil in the world- even for me who has spent a good chunk of the past 3 years coming to terms with evil. I hold (held?) a firm belief that evil things are not done by evil people, that evil people simply do not exist- no one is 100% good or evil- the definition of being human is having the choice. But what if a person spends that majority of their life doing evil things? What if the turn a community against a person... is there still some good in them? would I have wanted to find out? no. simply put- no.
well anyway, on top of my debates within myself and processing what i'd been told I got a real shock from one of my best friends yesterday. to put it simply- im still shell shocked. yesterday i almost rear-ended a car- a lot closer to it that i have ever been before, had to swerve to the right (people had come to a full stop while merging and silly me was looking at the lane next to me to ensure id be able to merge) anyway- typically this would really upset me, but all i said was "oh fuck" and then it went out of my mind.
thank god that some phone calls are answered- it certainly kept me sane.
monday night I had a long talk with Sandi about what she's been through, and it was difficult to hear- but I want to be supportive and try to understand. Its just hard to imagine the evil in the world- even for me who has spent a good chunk of the past 3 years coming to terms with evil. I hold (held?) a firm belief that evil things are not done by evil people, that evil people simply do not exist- no one is 100% good or evil- the definition of being human is having the choice. But what if a person spends that majority of their life doing evil things? What if the turn a community against a person... is there still some good in them? would I have wanted to find out? no. simply put- no.
well anyway, on top of my debates within myself and processing what i'd been told I got a real shock from one of my best friends yesterday. to put it simply- im still shell shocked. yesterday i almost rear-ended a car- a lot closer to it that i have ever been before, had to swerve to the right (people had come to a full stop while merging and silly me was looking at the lane next to me to ensure id be able to merge) anyway- typically this would really upset me, but all i said was "oh fuck" and then it went out of my mind.
thank god that some phone calls are answered- it certainly kept me sane.