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I've been a shut in the whole week.
I've been trying to focus on Physics for monday's exam. I just went to do more practice exams and realized I had no idea how to do anything. I'm seriously afraid something's wrong with my brain.
Even in Physics lab today, I couldn't understand simple concepts. I think I failed the quiz. I know I did. I just feel like my memory is slipping and my brain is losing the ability to function at its normal level. I can't retain simple formulas! Seriously! not ok.
I don't feel smart. Or confident. or Pretty.
I'm scared and very frustrated and I am reluctant to get help and I don't know why.
I haven't been horny though, so that's good... or really bad.
My appetite has also been lower than usual.
I'm definitely PMSSy (start Tues). I hope that accounts for my frustration and low self-esteem... but what about my ability to concentrate and operate?
I didn't even want to go to the store to buy velcro for my leg, which desperately needs it. All I got done today was practice, dr's apt, class, lunch, nap, laundry, minimal homework, maximal TV watching, and dinner.
Bill the engineer invited me to his Easter dinner. I'm going to go, but I'm afraid it'll be awkward without Marissa there since she's my real link to that group. It'll be REALLY awkward if Andy isn't actaully interested...
Earlier today I was in a great mood though. I really am comfortable in drs offices, and my dr there is really nice. I didn't eat lunch before class, so I didn't eat from like 10:30-3... that's what killed me I think. I took a nap but never really recovered my brain function. I need to suck it up and do some fucking hard work. I've had it pretty easy up till now and I think I'm expecting something else to go wrong and get me out of doing any real work.
I've been trying to focus on Physics for monday's exam. I just went to do more practice exams and realized I had no idea how to do anything. I'm seriously afraid something's wrong with my brain.
Even in Physics lab today, I couldn't understand simple concepts. I think I failed the quiz. I know I did. I just feel like my memory is slipping and my brain is losing the ability to function at its normal level. I can't retain simple formulas! Seriously! not ok.
I don't feel smart. Or confident. or Pretty.
I'm scared and very frustrated and I am reluctant to get help and I don't know why.
I haven't been horny though, so that's good... or really bad.
My appetite has also been lower than usual.
I'm definitely PMSSy (start Tues). I hope that accounts for my frustration and low self-esteem... but what about my ability to concentrate and operate?
I didn't even want to go to the store to buy velcro for my leg, which desperately needs it. All I got done today was practice, dr's apt, class, lunch, nap, laundry, minimal homework, maximal TV watching, and dinner.
Bill the engineer invited me to his Easter dinner. I'm going to go, but I'm afraid it'll be awkward without Marissa there since she's my real link to that group. It'll be REALLY awkward if Andy isn't actaully interested...
Earlier today I was in a great mood though. I really am comfortable in drs offices, and my dr there is really nice. I didn't eat lunch before class, so I didn't eat from like 10:30-3... that's what killed me I think. I took a nap but never really recovered my brain function. I need to suck it up and do some fucking hard work. I've had it pretty easy up till now and I think I'm expecting something else to go wrong and get me out of doing any real work.