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Well, my friends choose not to take me with them.
I really don't understand how I can be the nicest person to people, listen to their bullshit and problems, do things for them when no one else will, try to be there, try to be their best friend and have them treat me like shit.
So many times with so many people.....
Then those same people turn around and befriend assholes who abuse and neglect.
I guess happiness and true friendship dont go very far in the world, where people that hate all their friends and have an attitude of "I guess I'll bless you with my presence" are the most popular.
This world will, I swear, eventually turn me into either the worst emo ever, the biggest asshole the world has ever seen, or drive a gun into my mouth.
How I stay positive, friendly, and ecstatic after so many dissappiotments, failed friendships, and constant drives to be met with people ignoring me or plain cold sholder is...something.
I lost count of how many people I really liked down here only to find un-picked up phones, ignored emails, or plain social grace with no feeling.
I guess the few and far between very close friends and GF like people who express their love make it bearable.....But not on nights like this.
I really don't understand how I can be the nicest person to people, listen to their bullshit and problems, do things for them when no one else will, try to be there, try to be their best friend and have them treat me like shit.
So many times with so many people.....
Then those same people turn around and befriend assholes who abuse and neglect.
I guess happiness and true friendship dont go very far in the world, where people that hate all their friends and have an attitude of "I guess I'll bless you with my presence" are the most popular.
This world will, I swear, eventually turn me into either the worst emo ever, the biggest asshole the world has ever seen, or drive a gun into my mouth.
How I stay positive, friendly, and ecstatic after so many dissappiotments, failed friendships, and constant drives to be met with people ignoring me or plain cold sholder is...something.
I lost count of how many people I really liked down here only to find un-picked up phones, ignored emails, or plain social grace with no feeling.
I guess the few and far between very close friends and GF like people who express their love make it bearable.....But not on nights like this.