i dont know if i can handle this.

[boobiesancream]

a lot of people know that my brother has been going through a lot emotionaly lately. he has been going through withdrawls from random drugs and also went through a bunch of shit with his ex girlfriend. well evidentally all of this went to shit last night when he broke down enough to do something stupid then come home and try to kill himself over it. carl went outside last night to smoke a cigarrette and found james asleep in his car. with it running. no big deal really. he was going to go somewhere maybe and fell asleep. so carl woke him up and sent him inside to go to bed. well. carl got up this morning and went outside again to find the hatch on james' car to be open and have a tube running from the exhaust to the inside of the car. my brother tried to kill himself last night because of a dumb bitch. now we cant find him. i dislike my brother a lot of the time. but everyone deserves a chance. no one needs to decide to kill themselves. everything can be overcome. i am going to try to get him a job at work. maybe that would help him. keep him busy or something. keep his mind off of things. i need to go. sitting here right now is driving me crazy.
love you all. thank you for reading this. please if you pray. say a prayer. or just hope for the best if you dont. peace out.

jeremy