i like breathing -thanks
eww so i am tottaly sick with bronchitis or some other lung sickness and it tottaly blows! I actually like breathing and at the current moment it is turning into quite a difficult task. at least the fever has gone away- at least for the moment anyway. I am on some anti-biotics my mom gave me when i was at home but i am prolly going to still have to go to the voodoo hut because my chest is killing me. I would go to the ER but East Georgia sucks and last time i went there i went through all this B.S with them and my insurance company. I am not that bad cause i am still breathing i am just in pain. ha ha it is funny- i hate it there but will be volunteering there this semester in the nutrition department. should be interesting and hopefully i will get some good experience and be able to get a reccomendation for when i want my internship at Vanderbilt in the future. I am not sure how i feel about classes starting- it will be good because i will have something to do and all but i am a little wary that my classes might kick my ass like they did last semester. At least two of them did anyway- and i really really hope i dont have to re-take accounting but i prolly will.
so i decided that things with me and a certain someone are really pointless because i am not enjoying myself and so what is the point? it is just a waste of time to be honest. I think this person has a great personality and we can be friends but that is it. nothing more nothing less. i dont see the point in anything more and i am done waiting around for him to decide i am worth it when in all honesty i dont want anything besides friendship.
there is another person in the picture that i still have a crush on like a year later that has not gone away even after all the bullshit. prolly because we have had so many good times and lots of fun together.
I am not waiting for him either. he is a scardy cat. it is humerous because he has been talking about how he wants somebody to date but i dont see him doing anything about it. Maybe he just doesnt want to date me but that is not what i heard from jody. Plus he has been treating me different than he did in the past. We actually hang out and he actually talks to me when it was like pulling teeth to get him to talk to me last year when i was like completly infatuated with him. i am not infatuated with anymore but i do still have a crush on him. Why? I have no idea because there are a lot of things about him that make me think he is not good enough but another part me just overlooks that and see's him as a really nice guy. I know he has and he has proven that to me more in the past semester than ever before. i guess we are just not meant to be anything but i am ok with that. I am sure that a relationship of any kind other than what we have because it would change everything and I am not sure i want that. ahh too much!!! ha ha ha
i feel like crap so i am going back to bed...
so i decided that things with me and a certain someone are really pointless because i am not enjoying myself and so what is the point? it is just a waste of time to be honest. I think this person has a great personality and we can be friends but that is it. nothing more nothing less. i dont see the point in anything more and i am done waiting around for him to decide i am worth it when in all honesty i dont want anything besides friendship.
there is another person in the picture that i still have a crush on like a year later that has not gone away even after all the bullshit. prolly because we have had so many good times and lots of fun together.
I am not waiting for him either. he is a scardy cat. it is humerous because he has been talking about how he wants somebody to date but i dont see him doing anything about it. Maybe he just doesnt want to date me but that is not what i heard from jody. Plus he has been treating me different than he did in the past. We actually hang out and he actually talks to me when it was like pulling teeth to get him to talk to me last year when i was like completly infatuated with him. i am not infatuated with anymore but i do still have a crush on him. Why? I have no idea because there are a lot of things about him that make me think he is not good enough but another part me just overlooks that and see's him as a really nice guy. I know he has and he has proven that to me more in the past semester than ever before. i guess we are just not meant to be anything but i am ok with that. I am sure that a relationship of any kind other than what we have because it would change everything and I am not sure i want that. ahh too much!!! ha ha ha
i feel like crap so i am going back to bed...