Still Surviving

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and its hard 2 keep from feeling sorry for myself 
while dealing
ive done so much thats kept me from
healing
ive lost too many years
to fear and self loathing 
too many times have i tried 
and learned nothing
too long have i put kept the african in hiding
bottom line
im still surviving
now just bcuz its over
and i got through it
doesnt mean
i stopped
using it for fuel
doesnt mean 
i stopped
avoiding confrontation
not devoid of expectations
still racism in this nation
now im not urban
This aint hip hop
this is mixed race punk rock
im too black for you          
too white for you
i dont have to choose
i am human
just like you
this is what media
do to me
treating me as a skin disease
got 2 be a chameleon
got 2  know when 2 fit in
its all these white kids dressed as tupac
thats the most shocking
casually dropping the n bomb
and then attacking
this is so wrong
sick of trying to see beyond
but this is me
no wardrobe changes
ill take this world as my stage and 
this is me
the way nature created
what u get is not all u see
some people dont take me seriously
i cant tell if its cuz im black
or a woman with a body
sometimes the body
is the only way 
to get ahead
in my life its just been what my chest has said
education dead
cuz im brown i grew up downtown
graffiti in the ghetto
what the media says
goes to straight to the head
of all these kids
we need to be repeating what martin luther said
cuz now, I have a dream
that my culture quits 
dropping the N bomb
and the rest of the nation gets it
look around
what would Mr King think now?
now i understand obama is black
but cant u see the lack of respect thats still oozing out the white house
trying to find a way out
through the televison sets
and yes thru rap music
these kids are twisting your testaments and using them as racial slurs
i cant stand hear a white kid say nigger anymore
and guess where they heard it from
(((straight from the africans tounge)))
and no its not my word
it does not describe me
and i will never use it to refrence my homie
why the hell would i ever want that word in my vocabulary
when its only been used to divide me
to hide me
to make me inhuman
i am an african angel
and thats the only word youll catch me using
i am choosing to rise above my past
and im gonna make the angel last
the only way to change the world
is to be the change we want to see
lets make ppl wonder
"is it you or is it me?"