views on death

[boo_on_whales]

the more i learn about the buddhist's view of death, the more i like it. according to what was said about my uncle yesterday (during their many chants) eternal bliss is like those cool candy grabbing games at the arcade...you get to keep trying until you win. if you're good, you get to go to a heaven type place, if you're not so good you get to try again as a human, and if you're bad you move down the ladder (so i guess house cats are all not-so-good people trying to get back to heaven....) of animals and such. I really like that idea, and although i've always been one of those annoying "i'm spiritual but not religious" people, (my views on religion are rather tragic, convoluted things, but one day i'll write out the trauma of my falling out of the catholic church and such.) but yeah, this whole view on death is so different from anything else i've seen, and it just seems to make sense to me.

i don't know why i'm writing all this, but it just seems to feel good. sometimes, I just think about how john left behind those three little kids- my cousins-and his wife and all the things he did in his life and it just like kills me. i try to grieve, but i guess i'm just no good at it. ugh.

but yeah. that's the end of my emo ramblings. my apologies.