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this past week has been horribly i spent most of it sittin alone at my aunts house doin nuttin and it sucked but 2night i had fun till my mom decided she was 2 drunk 2 pick me up so i'm sittin in my house alone and i don't like bein alone but i guess i gotta get used 2 that..............idn lately i've been fellin all depressed cause i feel i'll never find sum1 i mean come on like i'm 17 and i don't even think i've had 1 guy have a crush on me and it hurts i just wanna find sum1 i really hate bein alone and i don't get it how ppl there r ppl out there who don't deserve the person or ppl they've had and they just have 1 after another whole wil bend over backwards and do just bout nething 4 them and they treat that person like complete shit and how i can have no1 and feel completely alone and i find it so unfair in so many ways it just sux how ppl take each other forgranted when others don't have ne1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i find life unfair and i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111 i wish that mayb even just 4 a min i could feel wut its like 2 b loved or even liked at all.........i just wish so much but i know it won't happen! mayb if i ways just a skinny lil slut it would work out but i'm not gonna b sum1 i'm not and i guess its not good enough!!!! idn i've just been in my head a lot lately and thats how i feel and i know all my friends r just like aww jamie thats not truebut we all know it is and ya know mayb u'll find sum1 soon but i'm 17 damn i didn't think i would have 2 wait till i'm 80 and like on my death bed damn!!!!!!!! well w/e this is how i'm feelin and i so wish i could change it but i've tried so if this is the best its gonna get then it sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAJORLY!!!!!